i automatically consider san antonio as God’s will simply because i actually moved here — which i guess is something of a miracle. but truth is i’m just terrified to think that this is just another mistake or dead end. but i may not be “better off”, but at least i’m asking…begging God for help instead of living in blind contentment.

now i understand
how way back then
they could run from what i’d embrace

i said they were fools
i still know it’s true
but now i’m one of them

cause i can’t deny – You brought me here
though the reason is not clear
and i can’t deny – You’re still behind
the blessing i can’t find

no i’m not better off
but i’m closer – to You

i had a smile
brought from earthly things
but they too soon turned to dust

now i’m struggling
with what i’m doing here
and the hardest thing is to trust

cause i blame You – You brought me here
and the reason is not clear
and i thank You – You still behind
me though i am so blind

no i’m not better off
but i’m closer – to You