if i wasn’t so fat

she would of loved me if i wasn’t so fat
i doubt everything, but i’m sure of that
she didn’t love me so neither do i
i see myself through her distracted eyes
everyone smiles but they never stay
they would if i didn’t drive them away
i’d love to wonder what kind words might mean
instead of knowing they want something from me
if only i could tease, just once to flirt
but it’s a man’s game, boys just get hurt
everything i defined myself around
is trembling and falling to ground
until all that’s left is all i need
a love that waits to set me free
from every pound, and just-a-friend
from all the reasons i’ll fail again
love, break me open and stitch my wounds
tell me i’ll find someone soon