i do not seek the sound of your laughter
though you still make my heart beat faster
i do not bottle joy to pour on you
i have seen everything you’re willing to do

i found you bright, i found you lacking
a castle walls with signs of cracking
you had your flaws, i had my doubts
i let you in, you hollowed me out

i feel that power in my bones
it’s strongest when i’m left alone
your words slip beneath the skin
i wince, and flash a transparent grin

i am cold, i am no fire
to rest a weary selfish desire
for i am no place to wash your face
and leave refreshed without a trace

there is evidence that you were here
you are tracked in the trail of my tears