i squeeze every ounce of joy
out of my day to hand to you
you swallow it and smile
a runner with one less mile

but deeper words lie like seeds
you don’t have time to sort through
i have to keep it shallow
if i’m going to keep you

tell me that i matter
tell me that you care
tell me that you miss me
whenever i’m not there

but i hide my hurt from healers
secret wounds from friendly fire
if they knew they’d say walk away
but you are my heart’s desire

i walk into traps, i know the danger
you love who i am, but not me
i can’t ever ask you to…
so i smuggle my dreams inside memories