i tell myself lies in the light of every day
when i swear that this will go away
in four months, in an afternoon
in the time it takes to say ‘I Do.’

can’t tell a story without an ending
i keep reading  signals you aren’t sending
but i know i will get over you
in the time it takes to say ‘I Do.’

you ask me if we can be friends
i did not think that i’d hear from you again
cause lately all we do is argue
i’ve tried to so hard to hate you

but your voice is a potion in my ear
with the words i never dreamed i’d hear
you miss me, you want me around
you know i’ll never let you down

but no
i love you too much
to just keep in touch
we’ll never be
what we were before
my heart will always want more
no.

i’m so afraid that i’ll push you away
more afraid you’ll quietly say
it’s ok, i understand, i’ll leave you alone
i’m afraid, wish you’d say…

no
you mean too much
to simply lose touch
maybe we’ll never be
what we were before
maybe God plans so much more
no.

i can hear in your voice a final goodbye
funny, i always thought i’d see it in your eyes
over the phone, in between states
i hear you hesitate

like a baby left outside your door
my heart is too fragile to ignore
i hear you sigh, and i know why
not every free bird flies

maybe we aren’t meant to be
but loving you is all i can do
and it’s worth the risk
it’s worth the risk
of losing you

you do not want to see me broken
so you leave harsh words unspoken
there is no phrase that would push me away
only the word you’re too nice to say

you tell me only time will take care
of the feeling i have finally shared
but you ask for something i cannot do
you want me over you

so it comes to this between you and me
a corner booth and warm cup of coffee
i look at myself from your empty eyes
a tree that secretly wants to fly
i whisper goodbye to the fleeing birds
you quote these rumors i haven’t heard
turn to the window, i can’t see the stars
just lights flickering over parked cars
your voice is a ringing telephone
right now i wish to be left alone
all i remember is the night you and i
sat on the grass staring up at the sky
the moon peeked through a cloudy wall
the night you and i, we felt so small
we were two needles lost in a haystack
i gave you my heart, now you hand it back
you drop your spoon, it hits the cup
maybe you’re trying to make me look up
but my eyes are turned mournfully low
as i wait for you to go
you offer no reason, not even a lie
you cast no blame that i can deny
searching for words, you look at the ceiling
i wonder if love is only a feeling
what i’ve found will not easily die
you seem content with a tearful goodbye
if i see you again, do i walk the other way?
stand in the corner thinking of something to say?
i’m letting you choose where forever ends
why not let you tell me when we can be friends
now i nod and smile, and say i understand
just so you’ll let go of my hand
i won’t i speak of love anymore because
i’m not sure if it ever was
but watching you walk out to your car
i whisper “farewell” to my falling star