i hope you’re happy
no, really, i do
i’ll try pretending
that i don’t miss you
they call me a fool
and i can’t argue
they say i’m hopeless
i guess that’s true
there are lessons i refuse to learn
there are bridges i refuse to burn
as long as there is hope
i will cope with you
i paid for your flight
to see your boyfriend
i still don’t know why
but i’d do it again
you keep me up late
just to ask my advice
i’d do it for you
but you just think i’m nice
you’re crying your tears now
wounded from what i’ve done
i swear it’s over
it’s just begun
i’m feeling real guilty
i swear i’m not to blame
see i’m different
i am JUST THE SAME
over my shoulder is no way to apologize
over my shoulder is no way to apologize
can you trust me when
i won’t look in your eyes
i’ve wept in the darkness
but the sun was just outside
i’ve cursed a cloudy sky
i’ve promised, i’ve lied
i know where i’m headed
i know that i should turn
the beautiful bright horizon
is all my bridges burned
it’s over, it’s closure
it drifts out to sea
i’m breathing, i’m better
i’m finally i’m free
from crumpled pieces of paper
i could never send
nothing ever said what i wanted to
but i found my heart and changed my mind
i hope i’ve seen the last of you
don’t live in the past
it was never meant to last
just “have a nice life”
december was magic
but magic is a lie
we both found the truth
one sad july
you kept breaking my heart
and i’d come back for more
but i’ve opened my eyes and
i’m ready to ignore
i won’t live in the past
it was never meant to last
i’ll “have a nice life”
i’m not close to seeing things your way
i rethink, it all comes out the same
i am the victim, and you are to blame
ok i may have bet too much
on hoping that you’d come around
you had the power to heal, you cut me down
but you can’t walk away
from everything you did not say
you cannot make today
out of yesterday
i hope you get to see the world
i pray that part of it breaks you
cause you need to know
it’s only love that makes you
so i guess i’m a tied loose end
i always wanted to be your friend
now it’s ugly, shoved in a closet
and you’re trying to forget
i’m sorry
i just had to tell you that i loved you
you had your suspicions
and i proved them true
you sat me down
with tears in your eyes
you sat me down
made me realize
i’m not the one for you
you said…
can’t we just be friends?
i thought i
gave you what you asked for
we were friends
and nothing more
but i guess that
was still too much
now you say
let’s just keep in touch
new meaning to old words that broke my heart
i say…
can’t we just be friends?
your kiss is sweet in mystery
to others, not unknown
i long to feel your softness
touch this heart of stone
like a whisper held in thunder
is my prayer under my tears
to keep me safe and searching
till you find me waiting here
it seems all hope is lost
but i don’t despair
i know God can hear my prayer
if we were meant to face our lives
together, hand in hand
then that makes clear emotions
i don’t yet understand
but i still seek the sun
here in my darkest hour
i will not test your love
on the pedals of a flower
hopelessly fallen so deep in her eyes
i drop in my quarters, she isn’t the prize
she is a queen and i am the joker
muttering curses to the guy who broke her
i’m expensive dessert, she’s already full
she’s a new sweater, i’m the thread you pull
she’s beautiful so bittersweet
admittedly out of my reach
hopelessly fallen but i still get advice
they throw dirty looks not handfuls of rice
pick myself out of this pit of fantasy
where i lie and wait for her to choose me
i know they are right, i know i should go
to the calm of the cliff and watch the river flow
and see that the current will take her away
realize that heaven must shrug when i pray
it’s quite foolish of me to say
i have even hope to pray
for a miracle greater than splitting the sea
for God to drop her in love with me
but David saw giants and gathered some stones
Samson, surrounded, had just a jawbone
Daniel survived in that dark lion’s den
don’t get me started on Gideon
you have the power, you have the plan
you know the rib missing from each man
so i ask, Father, make her mine
if she’s not, send me a sign …unmistakable
she is bright lightning in my sky
heaven sent, sure, but why
for the beauty, the awe, for me to see
or to destroy like skin to electricity
i don’t know if she’s good or bad
just the best hope i ever had
oh how i want her, i have no chance
but, God, You can give me romance
lifting up prayers like torches
to light this shadowed land
a cry for something solid
some simple i can understand
i am looking for some treasure
some weakness to defend
i am looking for her love
but it’s not what God intends
i am looking for a goddess
to bow and kiss her hand
i lift up prayers for things
God does not have planned
a flame up to this dry hope
i seer these words in my mind
that not every priceless treasure
is meant for me to find
i’m knocking at a door
i think opens up on home
a mirage in desert sand
it’s my reason to roam
but i’m crying for attention
her care to keep me warm
i crawl into her life
shelter from the storm
she is what i can’t pray for
she is the treasure to defend
she is the rainbow in my sky
she is not what God intends
i’m not the kind of guy girls kiss
not the kind they wish for
i’m not the kind of guy girls miss
i’m the one that convinces them they deserve more
i’m the guy that they let inside
i’m the one who sees their souls
i’m the phonecall when they need to cry
not the guy that they need to hold
so i’m ‘that guy’
i am the closest friend
i heal the wounded
and send them to battle again…
fine.
i’m not the kind of guy girls dream of
i’m the kind of guy they ignore
i’m not the kind of guy girls love
i’m the kind of guy that girls adore
i see the beauty that sets them apart
and they waste it on the wrong kind
i’m not the guy that breaks their hearts
i’m the guy that they leave behind