tuesday

who is the villain on a Tuesday afternoon
when the talk we had is over too soon
my eyes sting, washed in regret
my ears echo, the words i can’t forget

now my words land like fists
on the face i would have kissed
and i know – it’s no use to hide the tears
andi know – i may not see you for years

my denial is my chosen path
her way – is to unleash her wrath
it’s too late to say i’m sorry
and i’m too proud to say i’m happy

so i stand and run to hide the tears
and i know i won’t see her your years
but i don’t want to leave it this way
honestly i just want to stay

my girl


white stockings that stop at the knee
eyes and light up at the sight of me
laughs that are clear and sincere
whispered breaths against my ear

and a green dress with the tiniest stain
she points to it and always explains
and hair that dances along her face
and sways to the music of grace

and joy that shines through the sadness
and peace that withstands the madness
tears that fall with honesty
and hope for what is yet to be

and a smile that melts my day
when eveything doesn’t go my way
i will know her by these signs
i will know she will be mine

the hardest goodbye


she was turning right
i was waiting to turn left
i had to look away
to catch my breath

after all i’d been through
waking from a dream
still can’t shake the wish
ignore the feeling

cause she’s taught me much i could never know
lead’s me to places i could never go
she stole my heart when she caught my eye
she will be the hardest goodbye

i saw her follow through
on plans she’d made so young
and i won’t be there to hear
song dance off her tounge

she never chased desires
she surrendered to God’s hand
and now she is my reason
for following His plan

 

thanks for trying

i cough and swallow -what did you say?
you repeat yourself -i kneel and pray

you wanna talk just you and me
what kinda secret could make me so happy?

sugar in my coffee – stirrin’ round
you say you’ve known the way i feel
up end the cup and i suck it down
this nightmare is unreal

but it’s my life now i confess my eye’s on you
at first i thought it was my youth but now i believe it’s true

it’s sad,
but i keep your message on the phone
it’s sad but i play it back
and i don’t feel so alone

so i can’t hide, or i never did
and now you confront me
i’ll just pay the check but
thanks for trying to let me down easy

i’ve been swinging around a bottle you just took out the cork
i’m a spy who lost his cover but still shows up for work

if this were the movies the credits would roll
but if this were the movies you would never have said no

i can’t leave this town for love that i’ve never given voice
i can’t stand to face you but i don’t have a choice

you feel bad about me, dont want it to be this way
so you ask me how i am
well what do you want me to say?

no risk and no rejection means no reward for me
funny, i didn’t take the chance and i lost it all playin’ safety

i will never be


i watched you curse your normal life
i know you wish to be someone’s wife
i watch you

but you think that guys like the girls all wild
and i don’t know how to tell you but you’re just my style

but i will never be the one you don’t want me to be
i’ll never be your crying shoulder
no i – won’t be that guy ; oh i don’t know why
i will never be your crying shoulder

i wish you’d find love at first sight
cause you tell me you haven’t met your mr. right

and sure it hurts when you look right past me
but i don’t know what it is that i want you to see

cause i will never be the one you don’t want me to be
oh i don’t have what you need
no i won’t be that guy – oh i don’t know why
i will never be the man you need

i know just what – what you secretly pray for
you’re so pure – so sweet
and i will not be – be that dream guy
who walks right in – sweeps you off your feet

i wanted that girl


i gotta tell you about the girl
i know what you’re thinking, but you’re right
it didn’t happen all at once
i didn’t fall without a fight

i watched from the back of my mind
she kept playing with her hair
suddenly she smiled at me
come on, that’s just not fair

cause i wanted someone to hold
through the summer heat, winter cold
i wanted that feeling, i wanted that girl
but this story ends in the real world

she said, “i can’t do what i dream”
but then spoke up in poetry
i offered my nice advice
but i could i feel her get to me

she’d claim innocence of the world
and she would prove it with her smiles
and i didn’t care that she didn’t care
nah, that’s just my denial

happy

leaves fall at our feet like we’re kings
this walk takes us where we’ve never been
and as i look in your eyes i know…

i know that we will be happy
cause love like this never dies

seasons change but i stay the same
but summertime sends you away
but i know how it will go…

i know that we will be happy
when we’re tired of our separate ways

cold wind blows and the trees are bare again
a year since we walked down this road more than friends
it’s too cold to hope, still i wish…

i wish that i could be happy
but you’re all i think of love
i wish that i could be happy
but i’ve lost my only love

leaves fall at our feet like we’re kings
love like this never dies
love like mine will never die…

didn’t kill me

 


i handed her my heart
folded neatly in half
she said she’d give it some thought
i managed a courteous laugh

but until i heard the answer
i questioned everything
she sat me down and thanked me
but her sweetness had a sting
she explained the time was wrong
i tried to act unbroken
she told me, “hang in there”
i wished i’d never spoken

but it didn’t kill me
it didnt’ kill me – nah

 

she showed up with a story
i didn’t think i’d want to hear
but her true love found another
she wiped away a tear

i sat with stone faced stare
and tried to hide my joy
but my voice was wet with wishing
when i said she’d find her boy
she explained the time was wrong
i tried to act unbroken
she told me, “hang in there”
i wished i’d never spoken

but it didn’t kill me
it didnt’ kill me – nah
though this can’t go on much longer
i believe i’m getting stronger

why it’s quiet

she leans forward and sighs
says, ‘there’s a hush in here’
i agree but silently
can’t think of a thing to say

if she has to blame someone
i guess i will take it
but i will fight from falling
into what she thinks i am

cause only one of us is keeping secrets
only one of us just can’t forget
we both know somethings wrong here
but only one of us knows why it’s quiet

she can’t start a conversation
she does not want to stay
‘please don’t go’ i whisper low
she doesn’t ask me what i said

deepest fear of hurting her
no, the worst fear she won’t care
why can’t i talk to her
when she runs her finger through her hair

dream guy

 


you want a surprise?
look deep in my eyes
i’ve always had feelings for you

every crush you claim
leads me to the flames
it hurts to hear what they do

you want your man
you’ve made your plans
i hope your wishes all come true
but i don’t care about your dream guy
it’s not me, now don’t tell me why
i’d change for you
if you want me to
but i won’t ever be right

will he be there
if you cut your hair
maybe – he might

you put up a front
to get what you want
a prince and love at first sight
but i don’t care about your dream guy
it’s not me, now don’t tell me why