schoolgirl


there you sit grinning like a schoolgirl in her chair
blowing bubbles but you didn’t bring enough to share
and all i want to do is mess up your pretty hair
i wish i could do anything but stare

you make me laugh so much i start to choke
but i think i’m just part of your big joke
i carved a heart in a big shady oak
to replace the one i had that broke

so smirk and tease and drop your jaw
i’ll dance for you until i fall
and then just ask and i will crawl
you’re worth the risk to lose it all

tuck your hair behind your ear
i’ll whisper words you will not hear
and eventually you’ll disappear
but for now i’m glad you’re here

playing fair

i’ve got a deal made with a brick wall
i won’t try to climb it and it won’t let me fall
it’s a sad life lived in yesterdays
and i’m too stupid to walk away

but if i treat you like you treat me
you’d surely leave me lonely
you say i’ve changed
’cause i don’t follow you everwhere
you think it’s strange
all of a sudden i don’t care

but i’m just playin’ fair

see i’ve done the stupid dances
just to keep you out on the floor
and i have the been the man
i don’t want to be anymore
if i did not chase you down
you would not wait around

have you

people are whispering
they say that there’s something here
i know the rumors have reached your ear

and i’d have to agree
if i was not me
love looks like it would be easy

you know i don’t want to…
but no one else should get to…
have you

we’re the best of friends
with a big world to explore
but i can’t tell if i have ever wanted more
there’s no chance for us
it’s so obvious
but still sometimes i’m jealous

naive

i’m only naive
that’s what i thought you’d say
i don’t know the truth
so you explain it all away

but i think you’re too special
never let them say you’re plain
don’t buy love with lying down
pleasure only shadows pain

wrap yourself in promises
a gift for someone true
and wait for love to lead him
hopelessly fallen for you

why does he love

she stands on the corner shouting his name
he used to run his fingers through her hair
she’s made her choice to be a whore
and he tells himself not to care

’cause if he turns to face her calling
it won’t matter how sincere
he knows that eventually
she’ll end up right back here

so why does he lay down his heart to break?
why does he love for lovings sake?
he made a promise and every day he makes it true
maybe one day, maybe she’ll love him too

he adores the memories
the first laugh, the innocent kiss
he knows that sometimes
she forgets that he exists

she still says that she needs him
shows up drunk at his front door
he knows she’s only lonely
like a thousand times before

waiting

every morning i’ve stood at this open door
to watch the sun rise and reveal the empty day
train my eyes at the start of the sky
when i look for you who went away

they say i’m foolish for waiting
and hope’s a hard habit to break
they say i don’t look for you
it’s just my routine of being awake
eventually i go back inside
with excuses i have to believe
though each do i fight harder
to wait instead of grieve

this morning i won’t find you
it feels like pain to close the door
until you wrap your arms around me
you’re worth waiting for

nicole

i don’t think you really know
all the ways your live could go
i know it’s not my place to say
but don’t give yourself away
nicole

your laughter is addictive
it’s a drug that only you can give
guys are lined up to be your clown
but we’ll only let you down

what if what you think is love is only a tragic game?
what if what you’re after is more than a last name?
keep looking…

and you’re beautiful you know
lie down and we’ll tell you so
words are a cheap disguise
don’t listen to our lies

the hiss of a drowning fire

she finally found a reason to dig out her magazines
every scrap that she has saved since she turned 14
now the last 10 years are narrowed to 10 days
to put a check by the only plan she’s made

all her friends are coming so i guess i won’t be there
i still think i love her; not enough to show i care
i won’t see the dress or have to shake his hand
i won’t kiss her cheek, leave her lips for another man

she’ll end up unhappy
in some run down trailer park
and i will be the memory
she clings to in the dark

the articles she’s read tell her how to love
he says he’ll stay even when push comes to shove
if he lays a hand on her i hope she runs away
my door is always open – if she wanted she could stay

but for now she’s gonna
find a borrowed blue
and tell herself her dreams are coming true

noah

i’m noah
except it never did rain
i wasted my time on the ark
locked inside it everyday
i only hope when the sky goes dark
friends say i’m not helping anything
by refrusing to move on
but i lose more than a girl
if i admit that i was wrong

and hope does not get weaker when it should
and love is never fair
all the time i spent building this
disappears into dry air

could i find a reason to hate her?
blame for a broken heart
no, she never did anything to me
and i think that’s the worst part

letters


you believed in happy endings
all the movies say it’s true
and once upon a time
she’ll fall in love with you

you never were the one she wanted
you tried to be someone she’d need
you wrote the perfect letters
you realize now she’ll never read

what will you write about now?
there’s nothing left for you
hope is nowhere to be found
all the movies said
won’t come true.