oh brother



my eyes are closed but they don’t make
the world around me disappear
all of the twists – all of the chances
and i had to end up here

no man can hoard all of his feelings
and cover his vulnerable heart
still there’s that shame in falling
so we hide it from the start

but she – she was almost worth the risk
i saw her as no other
and now – she confesses her feelings
she loves me – like her brother?

her words carry off in an echo
like some punishment that i deserve
cause i had hoped to tell her
but i never had the nerve

and i’m stuck here with a smile
though i know that it’s our end
cause one things for sure -if we won’t be more
we will have to be less (than) friends

our conservation has ended
but we think of some reason to stay
over the phone – so close
so far away

tuesday

who is the villain on a Tuesday afternoon
when the talk we had is over too soon
my eyes sting, washed in regret
my ears echo, the words i can’t forget

now my words land like fists
on the face i would have kissed
and i know – it’s no use to hide the tears
andi know – i may not see you for years

my denial is my chosen path
her way – is to unleash her wrath
it’s too late to say i’m sorry
and i’m too proud to say i’m happy

so i stand and run to hide the tears
and i know i won’t see her your years
but i don’t want to leave it this way
honestly i just want to stay

the hardest goodbye


she was turning right
i was waiting to turn left
i had to look away
to catch my breath

after all i’d been through
waking from a dream
still can’t shake the wish
ignore the feeling

cause she’s taught me much i could never know
lead’s me to places i could never go
she stole my heart when she caught my eye
she will be the hardest goodbye

i saw her follow through
on plans she’d made so young
and i won’t be there to hear
song dance off her tounge

she never chased desires
she surrendered to God’s hand
and now she is my reason
for following His plan

 

thanks for trying

i cough and swallow -what did you say?
you repeat yourself -i kneel and pray

you wanna talk just you and me
what kinda secret could make me so happy?

sugar in my coffee – stirrin’ round
you say you’ve known the way i feel
up end the cup and i suck it down
this nightmare is unreal

but it’s my life now i confess my eye’s on you
at first i thought it was my youth but now i believe it’s true

it’s sad,
but i keep your message on the phone
it’s sad but i play it back
and i don’t feel so alone

so i can’t hide, or i never did
and now you confront me
i’ll just pay the check but
thanks for trying to let me down easy

i’ve been swinging around a bottle you just took out the cork
i’m a spy who lost his cover but still shows up for work

if this were the movies the credits would roll
but if this were the movies you would never have said no

i can’t leave this town for love that i’ve never given voice
i can’t stand to face you but i don’t have a choice

you feel bad about me, dont want it to be this way
so you ask me how i am
well what do you want me to say?

no risk and no rejection means no reward for me
funny, i didn’t take the chance and i lost it all playin’ safety

i will never be


i watched you curse your normal life
i know you wish to be someone’s wife
i watch you

but you think that guys like the girls all wild
and i don’t know how to tell you but you’re just my style

but i will never be the one you don’t want me to be
i’ll never be your crying shoulder
no i – won’t be that guy ; oh i don’t know why
i will never be your crying shoulder

i wish you’d find love at first sight
cause you tell me you haven’t met your mr. right

and sure it hurts when you look right past me
but i don’t know what it is that i want you to see

cause i will never be the one you don’t want me to be
oh i don’t have what you need
no i won’t be that guy – oh i don’t know why
i will never be the man you need

i know just what – what you secretly pray for
you’re so pure – so sweet
and i will not be – be that dream guy
who walks right in – sweeps you off your feet

happy

leaves fall at our feet like we’re kings
this walk takes us where we’ve never been
and as i look in your eyes i know…

i know that we will be happy
cause love like this never dies

seasons change but i stay the same
but summertime sends you away
but i know how it will go…

i know that we will be happy
when we’re tired of our separate ways

cold wind blows and the trees are bare again
a year since we walked down this road more than friends
it’s too cold to hope, still i wish…

i wish that i could be happy
but you’re all i think of love
i wish that i could be happy
but i’ve lost my only love

leaves fall at our feet like we’re kings
love like this never dies
love like mine will never die…

didn’t kill me

 


i handed her my heart
folded neatly in half
she said she’d give it some thought
i managed a courteous laugh

but until i heard the answer
i questioned everything
she sat me down and thanked me
but her sweetness had a sting
she explained the time was wrong
i tried to act unbroken
she told me, “hang in there”
i wished i’d never spoken

but it didn’t kill me
it didnt’ kill me – nah

 

she showed up with a story
i didn’t think i’d want to hear
but her true love found another
she wiped away a tear

i sat with stone faced stare
and tried to hide my joy
but my voice was wet with wishing
when i said she’d find her boy
she explained the time was wrong
i tried to act unbroken
she told me, “hang in there”
i wished i’d never spoken

but it didn’t kill me
it didnt’ kill me – nah
though this can’t go on much longer
i believe i’m getting stronger

dream guy

 


you want a surprise?
look deep in my eyes
i’ve always had feelings for you

every crush you claim
leads me to the flames
it hurts to hear what they do

you want your man
you’ve made your plans
i hope your wishes all come true
but i don’t care about your dream guy
it’s not me, now don’t tell me why
i’d change for you
if you want me to
but i won’t ever be right

will he be there
if you cut your hair
maybe – he might

you put up a front
to get what you want
a prince and love at first sight
but i don’t care about your dream guy
it’s not me, now don’t tell me why

 

ten minutes


you’re standing there
staring at your shoes
you ask me if there’s anything more

all i know
is i don’t wanna lose you
all i do – is watch you walk the floor

and the right words seem to wait
until it’s just too late

but now ….please

talk to me ten minutes after goodbye
maybe then i’ll know what to say
talk to me ten minutes after you leave
and i’ll make you stay

i called your name
but you were out of range
or maybe you just didn’t want to hear

all my claims
that i was gonna change
and it’ll be better this year

now you’re gone and i don’t understand
why i’m quiet – why i cannot win your hand

but now….please

talk to me ten minutes after goodbye
maybe then i’ll know what to say
talk to me ten minutes after you leave
and i’ll make you stay

Always Be A Friend

 


brother i’ve been a friend of yours
long enough to tell the truth
so sit down and let me tell you
your love has no proof

i can see she hold your fancy
you’re giving her your heart
but don’t lose reality
before this goes too far

it’s time you opened your eyes
it’s time you realized
she will always be a friend

in your rush to play it cool
you came across as cold
she’s taking hints you aren’t dropping
hearing stories you never told

she’s pulling away from you
you can’t see it cause you follow
you sacrificed a friend for the feeling
and all you feel is hollow

it’s time you opened your eyes
and finally realized
she will always be a friend