God, i speak to You in a breaking voice
selfishly searching for reasons to rejoice
Your name, Your reputation, made so weak in my hands
the skeptics look – think they understand

but let it not be a question of me
but brighter shine your unmockable glory
this life, it is not given to see what we might do
and i know that i will give it back to you

as i breathe and speak and die
as i sing and laugh and cry
i will keep Your name held high
above all else i’ll glorify

promises fade, they fall apart
i build up walls around my beating heart
You watch me carry the flag of Your name
i take my falls, why must You take the blame?

no bumper sticker, no bold tatoo
could never say anymore about You
than my life when viewed from the outside
by those who seek, what i try to hide

i don’t want to close my eyes
to make You more real to me
cause if i believe then i believe
You’re strong enough to make me see

i don’t want to sit in silence
cause i want to know You so much
i’ll believe the whispers of my mind
use the calm as a crutch

but You held Peter above the waves
when the storm would have him drown
so i believe that You can save me
from his shaky ground

the landmines of logic are waiting
for my fragile faith to fall
i know that only a fool
thinks he knows it all

but the mountains aren’t moving
and grandma still died
sometimes it’s too dark to see
You’re still my guide

Oh Holy God – You reach for me
i offer my heart and soul
and everything i give away
leaves me feeling more whole

oh God You can hear my cry
You see my heart’s washed clean
Jesus, You alone can take
these burdens that i bring

hear my cry – “thanks” – what you’ve done for me
Jesus, I will give you everything
even what I want
even when i fall
Jesus, You can have it all

like a storm cloud to Job You speak
like a whisper to Elijah You call
write you will upon my heart
like the writing on a wall

Your Glory, it is the melody
for a song i long to hear
and when i see You face to face
You’ll sing it in my ear

hear my thanks for what you’ve done for me
Jesus, I will give you everything
even what I want
even when i fall
Jesus, You can have it all

oh God, You saved me
here i am asking You
to do it again

find me here
where i hide
and point me home

but oh this light
makes me wish it was night
i don’t want to be seen now

cause i know what You have to see
cause You can’t settle for my lies
no – You always realize

that i am worthless
to me and my plans
and i am unworthy
for You to call me a man

but oh God, You see some worth in me
that i can’t believe is there
at times like this i can’t see
just why You care – You care

stop this pounding in my head
that’s telling me i’d be better off
over there instead of waiting i’m waiting for you

to break my mind open
break my thoughts to fit your will
break my heart open
the only way  You’ll fill it
break my heart

oh God, You know me
and here i am saying, “who are You”
one sided , i’m hidin’
i’m hiding from You

put Your hand on my heart
and rip it apart
if that’s the only way
You can say – here i am. here i am. child, here i am.

break my heart. break my heart.

there’s two minutes left on primetime tv
but the game is over to me
’cause my team is losing, letting me down
no hope they’ll turn it around

so i give up, and off goes the game
if i watch or walk, you know it’s all the same
’cause it’ll happen just like before
and i don’t wanna watch anymore

so i change the channel
i don’t wanna be there when they drop the ball
oh it’s more than they can handle
so i’m changing the channel

You’ve tuned in to all of my days
most of the time i can’t feel your gaze
so i play my games and take my dives
You see me live the life i deny

You watch me walk away from You
same old story, i’m nothing new
i’m sick of making all these mistakes
sick of making promises you know i’m gonna break

but You won’t change the channel
You’re gonna be there when i take the fall
when it (feels like) more than i can handle
no, You never change the channel

i follow tracks carved out for me
with an envious eye on destiny
cause this world seems so set in stone
will i always feel so lonely

but i’m watcing a waltz in a sparkling sky
and i know what way up high
things aren’t as they seem down here
beyond the reach of our dreams our fears

way up there
You are everywhere
i want to step on the stars
i want to be where You are

so take me away…to Mars

set my feet on the highest land
so i can see – i can comprehend
the grand scheme of the common man
where can i ask, but where i stand

i want to kick up that dust on the moon
and know that my purpose is gonna find me soon
i want to watch my worries float away
i want to be a boy at play

way up there
You are everywhere
i want to step on the stars
i want to be where You are

so take me away…to Mars