Category Archives: God

thirsty

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Faith, God, Struggles


i’m useless
i’m sad and ashamed
i’d rather shed selfish tears
than speak Your name

but nothing around here
reminds me of You
taking a scapel to myths
i wanted to be true

but i won’t sing those songs
unless i mean amazing grace
but more than your voice
i want You to put me in my place

i’m thirsty, Lord
give me a taste (of the reason for pain) i’ll go on again
i’m thirsty, Lord
lift up my chin in this rain

i’ve heard it said before
thinking men get nothing done
when i finally find the will to fight
i find the enemies won

but i survive, and they look down
i’m all wrapped up in my hypocrisy
forgive me for falling so far
and taking Your name down with me

thank You for the drought
You knew a flood would have me think
that i deserve these gifts
when i’m just begging for a drink

overtake me

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Faith, God, Struggles

heaven, i’m hiding in the garden
ashamed of what i’ve given away
i’m only a slave to strong emotion
crouching in the darkness of day

drag me out to face You
for sins i can’t deny
but You call me, You invite me
You let me choose to lie

overtake me and break me
put me together again
overtake me and break me
put me together again

heaven, i’d running far from you
chasing the desires of my heart
i’m afraid that all the plans i made
won’t save me when we’re apart

i’ve come to think that it’s my way
to chase the passion calling me
but it’s you who’s whispering my name
relentlessly

unguarded

Posted on by under Faith, Girls, God, Hope, Love

i stake my story on rumor of chance
if i am wrong i will fall and all break
for i know i’m ill equipped for romance
some guys don’t have what it takes

if every know that’s screamed in my ear
proves out to be the obvious plan
i’ll cradle the dream that i never did hear
i chose a lie and you chose another man

but david’s stone took goliath down
a bloody jawbone saved samson’s life
a baby boy wore heaven’s crown
so i hope you’ll be my wife

God is the God of what’s best for me
has He given me sight to see that it’s you?
or do i desire fruit from a tree
a dream best left untrue?

i write this like a man unguarded
drawn to danger, left to die
they say i’ll end up broken hearted
but for the sake of love i try

carry you

Posted on by under Faith, God, My Favorites

they say you’re on the way
they say you’re near
it’s your first day
of your first year

we’ve been waiting
to watch you grow
to see you testing out your fingers
and curl those tiny toes

we’ll feed you and clothe you
and send you to school
we’ll fix your scraped knees
and your bicycle too
until you can wallk
we’ll carry you

so start a new story
this is chapter one
just imagine the work
that God’s begun

how far will you travel
where will you stay?
follow God where He leads you
you’ll be ok

he’ll guide you, beside you
he’ll be your rescue
he’ll fix broken hearts
if you only ask him to
and when it’s just to hard to walk
he’ll carry you

reach

Posted on by under Faith, God

if i climbed to the highest
would you know my name
if i hid in the lowest
would you still see my shame?

if i cry cause i’m lonely
would you send a friend
if i tell her goodbye
will i see her again?

why waste my wonder
on the skies i live under
cause You’re tryin’ to teach
let go of what is out of Your reach

if i walked in the fire
could you cool the flames
if i fell to the lions
would you make them tame?

if i follow my heart
will it be my guide
if i fell from the path
will you know that i tried

 

if i walked away
would you not give chase
if i was lost in the would
could i find your grace

if i could step from this land
and shake off the dust
if i could wake in a dream
i would still need You, Jesus

heaven

Posted on by under Faith, God, Hope

i wake in dreams and weep for joy
my sight no hope could hold
i see bright streets with crowds in song
the end of my road so long
and pierced hands pull faith from doubt
to lead a child home

no shame of self, no sad looks back
clear streams wash the past off of me
a new sun dawns the land in gold
a child is led home…

by pierced hands.

choice

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God

 


i’m not a child full of fear
with monsters in my closet
i’m not a soldier in the trench
praying the line holds tonight

but i hide like a prisoner
when the warden says it’s time
i’m a guilty man running
from the music

i’m afraid you’ll find me
and ask me to explain
i’m afraid you’ll bind me
maybe it’s better that way

but no, you had to give me
a choice that i might not choose you
no, you had to give me
a voice that i could deny you
but i wouldn’t be loving you
if i didn’t choose to

i’m absorbed by the silence
there is nothing new to say
my heart spilled its feelings
a year ago today

clutching it close to my chest
i whisper i’m letting it go
not strong enough to surrender
not brave enough to run

i’m afraid you’ll find me
tear it from my fists
i wish you’d stand behind me
and push me through this

maybe it’s better that way…

you know

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

i think i’ve stayed up too late tonight
all my fears echo round in my head
i’m lonely, so lonely
but all of my friends are in bed

so i’m sending this weak prayer
with my face buried in my hands
everyone’s gone away from me
God i hope you understand

You know…. how it feels

sometimes this world gets mean to me
and it feels like more than i can take
i open, open up my heart
only to have it break

in my selfishness
i don’t know if you’ll get this
but i leaned in
for the goodbye kiss

i hope you understand
what it’s like to be a man…

you know.

fix you

Posted on by under friends, God

i whispered for you this afternoon
i handed a prayer to eager hands
God held it to His ear
smiled, and sent His angels

clouds broke open and showered down
but sunshine found your frown
all the while i thought of you
life will turn around

i’m here for you
no matter what you do
but i can’t fix you
but i can’t fix you

you walk in darkness in search of light
i saw you stumbling, afraid
trusting lies that hold your hand
leading you out of the promised land

so i am a sympathetic ear
telling you what you don’t want to hear
you are lost, yes you’re alone
but there’s no reason to fear

Any Good

Posted on by under Faith, God, My Favorites


moses was a killer out on the lamb
he stunk of sheep in the desert heat
You came in a flame, the great I AM
and Your holiness washed under his feet

david, he was working out in the fields
while his brothers lined up to be king
You led him to a giant, led him to the throne
to God alone goes the glory

now i see why You choose losers
God, it’s not what i do
if any good be found in me, it’s You

you know peter tried, but got it wrong
he kept making promises he couldn’t keep
You know he denied, and he fell asleep
three 2nd chances, “if you love me, feed my sheep”

gideon, he was weakest – weakest in the land
but you called him to victory
still he had no skill, no steadfast will
to God alone be the glory