Category Archives: God

change the channel

Posted on by under Faith, God

 


there’s two minutes left on primetime tv
but the game is over to me
’cause my team is losing, letting me down
no hope they’ll turn it around

so i give up, and off goes the game
if i watch or walk, you know it’s all the same
’cause it’ll happen just like before
and i don’t wanna watch anymore

so i change the channel
i don’t wanna be there when they drop the ball
oh it’s more than they can handle
so i’m changing the channel

You’ve tuned in to all of my days
most of the time i can’t feel your gaze
so i play my games and take my dives
You see me live the life i deny

You watch me walk away from You
same old story, i’m nothing new
i’m sick of making all these mistakes
sick of making promises you know i’m gonna break

but You won’t change the channel
You’re gonna be there when i take the fall
when it (feels like) more than i can handle
no, You never change the channel

heaven help me

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

365 reasons to say thank you
but all i can think about is one day
how so much can change in a year
and still say much the same

with my tainted wisdom i can guess
that i’ll keep falling till the floor
and only then will God pick me up
when i can’t fight Him anymore

heaven help me, i’m not there yet
why do i fall when You say i can fly?
heaven help me, i must forget
why i wound You with lies?
do what it takes to break me
heaven help me, i’m not there yet

how much further before i land
and fall broken to my knees
how many nights like this until
i hang from the tree of my deeds

i long for that distant day
when all this will be erased
as shadows flee from the sun
and i recognize Your face

this much i know

Posted on by under Faith, God, Struggles

pick me up this threshing floor
tell me i’m special, tell me i’m loved
tell me you sing me a lullaby
every night from above

they told me stories i eventually read
i had no problem calling them true
but now they are feeding me little white lies
making it easier …to follow You

but i don’t believe in You
because i’m supposed to
i won’t pretend to understand
all the works of Your hand

but this much i know is true
i need You

schoolnight fights back when i was a boy
i wanted to stay up till i fell asleep
dad would say – tomorrows another day
as he tucked me under the sheets

in that darkness i had no fear
of the consequence of coming years
i rested in knowing that you knew me
there was more to life than i could see

now i just need to be told once more
that you fuss over those the world ignores
hold me and tell me again
You’re my friend

take me to mars

Posted on by under Faith, God

i follow tracks carved out for me
with an envious eye on destiny
cause this world seems so set in stone
will i always feel so lonely

but i’m watcing a waltz in a sparkling sky
and i know what way up high
things aren’t as they seem down here
beyond the reach of our dreams our fears

way up there
You are everywhere
i want to step on the stars
i want to be where You are

so take me away…to Mars

set my feet on the highest land
so i can see – i can comprehend
the grand scheme of the common man
where can i ask, but where i stand

i want to kick up that dust on the moon
and know that my purpose is gonna find me soon
i want to watch my worries float away
i want to be a boy at play

way up there
You are everywhere
i want to step on the stars
i want to be where You are

so take me away…to Mars

reason in the rain

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Faith, God, Struggles

thunder rolls inside of me
lightning flashes, i can’t see
what this storm is for

i’ve prayed the days gone by
please explain why it’s so dry
there must be something more

this is what i’ve prayed for
thank you, please take it away
cause all i see is the pain
show me the reason in the rain

the night’s alive and it is angry
again i’m asking “save me!”
give me the strength to wait longer

the clouds will pass, the sun will rise
i can imagine clear blue skies
but this storm…it’s making me stronger

peter’s tears

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God


here, in the world i hold at bay
surrounded by folks who don’t see things my way
they ask me questions, i know they know the truth
all they want from me is proof

when did i learn to be ashamed of my soul?
i try to disect what God’s made whole
only for my sake i lied, i denied
i know You’re dying inside

and Your words come back in my regret
i swore i’d never forget
tossed into a land so well worn
i feel less like a seed and more like a thorn

i lose myself in the lies of my mind
robbed of excuses i’m trying to find
three times convicted, i was broken by two
i can’t think of what i’ve done to You

but never again – that’s my oath of the hour
give me the strength, i haven’t the power
to stand in the face of that slow steady wind
and never fall – again.

make it true

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, friends, God

who is to blame
for taking your name
and proving you bad about town

who stole your soul
held it high on a pole
and painted you up as a clown

you think you fly free
but it looks to me
like you never even left the ground

but it’s ok – to say
you live a life that let you down
it’s alrigh t- don’t deny
sometimes you trip and hit the ground

don’t pretend – i’m too good a friend
oh the things you thought you knew
you forget, or haven’t learned yet
wishing it won’t make it true

give me advice
while you’re paying the price
of stepping out of the light

you told me you won
but all you did was run
you never even put up a fight

a tear in your eye
life is passing you by
and you pretend you’re still alright

speak to me

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Faith, God, My Favorites

i’m waiting
for a surprise
watching for someone i’ve never seen

if you’re there
you hear my prayers
take me where i’ve never been

i know i can’t expect an answer
but i ask anyway

speak to me
in the voice that jonah heard
one so real
i obey – or run away

i’m tired
of holding my breath
i cannot force you to speak

what might be you
i’m able to
ignore for the message i seek

speak to me
in the voice that Jesus used
one so real
i obey – or run away

someday

Posted on by under Faith, God, Hope, Struggles

i say someday
i pray someway
i’ll be the one i’ve always claimed to be
i’ll be a slave who knows what it’s like to be set free

so i say “someday”

i don’t know – maybe tomorrow
you’ll show me – where i need to go

but, God, in my own little world
where all i can see is what You haven’t done for me
i don’t why You just dont reach down and say
“my child, here’s the way”

so i say “someday”

i pray someday
i’d follow your path
i’d stick with you
but i guess only You know what i’d do

someday i pray
You’ll give me a love

cause God in my own little world
where all i can see is just how lonely i am
i don’t see why i have to spend these days
just come down and be with me

but you say someday
You say One Day

explain

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God


she’s had a bad day, that much is clear
her head rests softly on his chest
and i can sense her peace from here
that moment when the weary find their rest

and i wonder, sure i wonder
in all the world, why those two?
if destiny rules with whispers and thunder
what are the lonely to do?

everyone’s eager to speak for me
as if they can voice what i feel
but only God knows what words cannot free
that emotion that’s never quite real
cause there’s something inside
that i’m trying to hide
somethings i can’t explain

there are thoughts that defy
my mind and my eye
somethings i can’t explain
this world is big on breaking the rules
going too far, and worshipping martyrs
just like putting new hats on old fools
their knowledge doesn’t make them smarter
i join in the song of chance melody
buy into the lie that we’re all alone
cause i want to hide behind everything i see
to escape that light that points me home

everyone’s saying i should believe
what they’ve decided to preach this week
but there is a truth that surely must grieve
cause this world lies, and i won’t speak