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these times

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i came here a simple boy
and i’m leaving about the same
but i’ve grown to love some things
that i thought i’d never tame

i used to sleep reluctantly
for i did not what to know
the things that lie ahead
but now I wait on tomorrow

for these times can change a man
God don’t let my ego out grow your hand
oh these times can change a man
so God don’t let my ego outgrow your hand

when i run to you hold me close
out of harms way
hold me tighter still tell me to stay
when i try to run away

(bridge)
this time has changed me
but God don’t let me live my life in captivity
this time has moved me but
right back there with you is where i long to be

I came here a simple boy
Just following your call
now i’m an individual
who can’t hear your voice at all

i try

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i try to be honest
but sometimes i lie
i try to be fair
but i have judgmental eye

i try to be friendly
but sometimes i’m mean
i try to keep my wickedness
to myself and unseen

and i try to act like i don’t hear when people say…things
i try to act like their words don’t sting

that’s right i’m not feeling alright tonight
that’s right everything is not ok
did you see me when i cried – did you happen to hear me sigh
oh i can’t keep anything from you…
but i try

i try to be good
but i always turn up bad
i try to be happy
but it always makes me mad

i try to ignore
all my faults all my needs
but it’s hard to forget
what everyone else can see

i try to believe these chains they set me free
i try to act like it doesn’t bother me

oh i don’t see you cryin’ here with me
oh i don’t see you dyin’ here with me
why can’t i see you died for me?

just for today

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Faith, God, Struggles


God the battle’s really hard these days
when one falls there’s no one there to take her place
and another leaves this world still lost
some decide it’s too high a cost

God I’m getting tired of this
have the prayers i’ve sent up missed?
You say I’ll sing to You for all eternity
but from where I sit it’s hard to see — why

i want to praise you forever
but i can’t see that far

so i will – just for today
for this day – this day that you have made
I will praise you – just for today

God show me where to turn
lite my soul and let it burn
i miss the fire that raged in me
the warmth, the light others could see

You say You’re here I know You are
but it feels like You’re some distant star
open my eyes to see You’re light
’cause in this darkness I lose my sight