be who i am

Posted on by under Girls, Sad, Struggles


i think of you when i’m lonely
when i have a story to tell
i could always get a laugh from you
like water from a well

wrap my words around you
like a blanket keep you warm
hold my love over your head
like shelter from the storm

but i need you…to hold my hand
and say it’s ok…if i don’t understand
i need you to whisper “i love you”
i need you be….who i’ve been for you

the lover and the loser
both can be a fool
with a shiny prize
we overlook the rules

i never thought it was game
until you did not want to play
i never knew till know
i can’t get back what i gave away

All Over Me

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Sad

she doesn’t think about me anymore
there ain’t gonna be a phonecall
no letter to see what i’m up to today
no postcard she bought at the mall

i like to think it’s still an issue
that she wants to go back again
but it’s only a dream that we could be
anything, even just friends

she’s all over me
i can’t get her out of my mind
she’s all over me
i’ve been left behind
she’s all over me
she’s over me

she’s a rainy day hobby i try to fix
and work it out 1000 different ways
i am so close to find out
what i could have done to make her stay

everything holds her reflection
i just want to be left alone
but i gave my heart to her
so i guess i can’t hold my own

tell me what’s wrong

Posted on by under friends, Struggles

you’ll have to try harder to hold me
i’m getting better at running away
i cannot see how it all works out
i don’t believe a thing that you say

if i am special, then i’m rare
and that makes me harder to find
but i’ve been picked up and put down
i have been left behind

tell me something that i know to be true
say i’m broken and i don’t know what to do
i want to believe you
so tell me what’s wrong…..with me

like old Rip Van, i’m up and confused
i feel a hope that beaten and bruised
still i slip it on with a big grin
no matter what i’m holding in

you would shoot in like the sunshine
you’d convince me to see everything bright
now it’s a fake, tired old line
your more of a flourescent light

guess i’ll let you go

Posted on by under Girls, Love, My Favorites, Sad


i’m keeping a straight face
i’m playing it cool
but you turn my strength
into the hope of a fool

how could you call me
with nothing to say
but i’m not admitting
you made my day

how are ya doing?
we can’t talk long
i’m glad you called
no, nothing wrong
i can’t let you know….
so i guess i’ll let you go

risk means reward, right?
when why do i lose?
i don’t sit on the shelf
waiting for you to choose

if i show you my heart
you’ll leave me alone
so i’m keeping these secrets
on my telephone

calling to hear your voice

Posted on by under friends, Girls, Sad


i want to cry on your shoulder
and tell you about my day
i want you to hold me
and say “everything’s ok!”

but i can’t do that anymore
in 5 minutes over phonelines
these days i only get
time enough to say goodbye

and i don’t have anything new for you
i’m just calling to hear your voice
you’re sunshine to these shadows
and i have no choice but to miss you

the days grow shorter, the skies grow grey
the sun never seemed to so far away
and i heard rumors that you were crying
but if i asked, you wouldn’t say

i’d love for you to bring me down
and tell me why you cry
let me try to change your mind
i want to dry your eyes

you know

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

i think i’ve stayed up too late tonight
all my fears echo round in my head
i’m lonely, so lonely
but all of my friends are in bed

so i’m sending this weak prayer
with my face buried in my hands
everyone’s gone away from me
God i hope you understand

You know…. how it feels

sometimes this world gets mean to me
and it feels like more than i can take
i open, open up my heart
only to have it break

in my selfishness
i don’t know if you’ll get this
but i leaned in
for the goodbye kiss

i hope you understand
what it’s like to be a man…

you know.

cold weather

Posted on by under Death

 


cold weather comes
sliding down that hill
and barges through open doors
like bad news

cold weather flees
in one morning of sun
high in blue sky
it’s gone

like the giants of cities now fallen
giving everbody stories
of the day without smiles
there was a day without smiles

cold weather comes
sliding down that hill
and barges through open doors
like bad news

how hard

Posted on by under Girls, Sad


the leaves are losing color
soon they’ll cover lawns
but without you, it feels like
more than a season is gone

you write me letters
to keep me closer than a memory
i keep them in a notebook
labeled “Ancient History”

i guess i’ve kept my secret
i hope i will forget
i hope you never know
how hard it is to let you go

the sky was clear this morning
no clouds were bringing rain
but everything must change
now i hear the roar of planes

and i’d fly out to see you
if i had anything to say
but i ….i can wait
until your wedding day

flight 93

Posted on by under Death

kiss me, my darling, before i go
my flight leaves at 8 am
i’ll see you when i get home
i’ll call you from the west coast

and when i say i love you
it’s for always
starting today

hey there, it’s me, from the air
i just called to say…i miss you
i’ll hope that you will be….

happy.

so kiss me, my darling, before i go

fix you

Posted on by under friends, God

i whispered for you this afternoon
i handed a prayer to eager hands
God held it to His ear
smiled, and sent His angels

clouds broke open and showered down
but sunshine found your frown
all the while i thought of you
life will turn around

i’m here for you
no matter what you do
but i can’t fix you
but i can’t fix you

you walk in darkness in search of light
i saw you stumbling, afraid
trusting lies that hold your hand
leading you out of the promised land

so i am a sympathetic ear
telling you what you don’t want to hear
you are lost, yes you’re alone
but there’s no reason to fear