bittersweet is the day
sunshine with a shadow
this is time for a smile
but we can’t stop for sorrow
and i have no words to rise above
the feelings, my love
i dont know what to say
so won’t you pray
i’m not ok
laughter covers the silence
we find excuses to talk away
i’m left here with my bags packed
and the urge to stay
you’re crying your tears now
wounded from what i’ve done
i swear it’s over
it’s just begun
i’m feeling real guilty
i swear i’m not to blame
see i’m different
i am JUST THE SAME
over my shoulder is no way to apologize
over my shoulder is no way to apologize
can you trust me when
i won’t look in your eyes
i’ve wept in the darkness
but the sun was just outside
i’ve cursed a cloudy sky
i’ve promised, i’ve lied
i know where i’m headed
i know that i should turn
the beautiful bright horizon
is all my bridges burned
we’ve reached the end of our conversation
any more words would be wasted on you
because if i say anything
you won’t believe it’s true
i’m tired of not being trusted
don’t be afraid of me
i’m asking you to run away from somewhere
you have no reason to be
anything i say
you throw away
as obligated
i think you’re beautiful, yes, yes i do
i’m sorry i don’t make you feel that way
but if you believe i would lie to you
i’ve got nothing more to say
i love you, you’ll just have to deal with that
take it or leave it, it will not die
but the only thing you seem to believe
is when i say goodbye
it’s over, it’s closure
it drifts out to sea
i’m breathing, i’m better
i’m finally i’m free
from crumpled pieces of paper
i could never send
nothing ever said what i wanted to
but i found my heart and changed my mind
i hope i’ve seen the last of you
don’t live in the past
it was never meant to last
just “have a nice life”
december was magic
but magic is a lie
we both found the truth
one sad july
you kept breaking my heart
and i’d come back for more
but i’ve opened my eyes and
i’m ready to ignore
i won’t live in the past
it was never meant to last
i’ll “have a nice life”
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
i love your voice, but miss your eyes
are these feelings i should hide from you?
i have no one else i can tell them to
yes, it’s weird not having you here
but friendships never disappear
don’t feel bad, please don’t cry
this is my side of saying goodbye
if i did not know you so well
i could lie and say i’m fine
but you can tell
i’m not used to missing you
you’re so happy, you should be
love has found you finally
for your man, i understand
why you walk away
i don’t know if it’s right to say
but it feels like i’m giving you away
so do not ever regret
and do not ever forget
i’m not close to seeing things your way
i rethink, it all comes out the same
i am the victim, and you are to blame
ok i may have bet too much
on hoping that you’d come around
you had the power to heal, you cut me down
but you can’t walk away
from everything you did not say
you cannot make today
out of yesterday
i hope you get to see the world
i pray that part of it breaks you
cause you need to know
it’s only love that makes you
so i guess i’m a tied loose end
i always wanted to be your friend
now it’s ugly, shoved in a closet
and you’re trying to forget
i’m sorry
i just had to tell you that i loved you
you had your suspicions
and i proved them true
you sat me down
with tears in your eyes
you sat me down
made me realize
i’m not the one for you
you said…
can’t we just be friends?
i thought i
gave you what you asked for
we were friends
and nothing more
but i guess that
was still too much
now you say
let’s just keep in touch
new meaning to old words that broke my heart
i say…
can’t we just be friends?
your kiss is sweet in mystery
to others, not unknown
i long to feel your softness
touch this heart of stone
like a whisper held in thunder
is my prayer under my tears
to keep me safe and searching
till you find me waiting here
it seems all hope is lost
but i don’t despair
i know God can hear my prayer
if we were meant to face our lives
together, hand in hand
then that makes clear emotions
i don’t yet understand
but i still seek the sun
here in my darkest hour
i will not test your love
on the pedals of a flower
hopelessly fallen so deep in her eyes
i drop in my quarters, she isn’t the prize
she is a queen and i am the joker
muttering curses to the guy who broke her
i’m expensive dessert, she’s already full
she’s a new sweater, i’m the thread you pull
she’s beautiful so bittersweet
admittedly out of my reach
hopelessly fallen but i still get advice
they throw dirty looks not handfuls of rice
pick myself out of this pit of fantasy
where i lie and wait for her to choose me
i know they are right, i know i should go
to the calm of the cliff and watch the river flow
and see that the current will take her away
realize that heaven must shrug when i pray
when i fall you feel the pain
when i thirst you pray for rain
when i try you cheer me on
when i win you say you knew all along
you gave so much to teach me
the lessons, they didn’t always reach me
of all i’ve learned, i know this is true
i could not ever stop thanking you
i may not say it that often
but i hope you know it’s true
when i grow up i want to be
just like you
when i cried you wiped the tears
killed the monsters and calmed my fears
when i stayed out i knew you’d worry
when i slept, you prayed over me
you make it look so easy
it’s what i dream to be
i hope you finish what you’ve begun
i’m so proud to be your son