unmistakable

Posted on by under Faith, Girls, God, Hope, Love

it’s quite foolish of me to say
i have even hope to pray
for a miracle greater than splitting the sea
for God to drop her in love with me

but David saw giants and gathered some stones
Samson, surrounded, had just a jawbone
Daniel survived in that dark lion’s den
don’t get me started on Gideon

you have the power, you have the plan
you know the rib missing from each man
so i ask, Father, make her mine
if she’s not, send me a sign …unmistakable

she is bright lightning in my sky
heaven sent, sure, but why
for the beauty, the awe, for me to see
or to destroy like skin to electricity

i don’t know if she’s good or bad
just the best hope i ever had
oh how i want her, i have no chance
but, God, You can give me romance

tattoo

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Faith, God

tonight i look back on my life
i think that you would like to see
me by the fire, out in the crowd
saying, “no, he aint’ with me”

because i cannot claim to be
someone who knows the truth
when i can’t even walk in your way
everyday of my life is proof

but You tatoo me
Your word in my heart
You tatoo me
we’ll never be apart
help me live up to
this tatoo

play the music, pull me offstage
i’ve done my damage to Your name
You let me hold up a banner for You
while i’m a slave to flesh and flame

so when i deny You, are You glad
You don’t have to speak for my sins?
but when i weep, You hold my hands
You know that i’ll do it again…

what God intends

Posted on by under Girls, God, Sad

lifting up prayers like torches
to light this shadowed land
a cry for something solid
some simple i can understand

i am looking for some treasure
some weakness to defend
i am looking for her love
but it’s not what God intends

i am looking for a goddess
to bow and kiss her hand
i lift up prayers for things
God does not have planned

a flame up to this dry hope
i seer these words in my mind
that not every priceless treasure
is meant for me to find

i’m knocking at a door
i think opens up on home
a mirage in desert sand
it’s my reason to roam

but i’m crying for attention
her care to keep me warm
i crawl into her life
shelter from the storm

she is what i can’t pray for
she is the treasure to defend
she is the rainbow in my sky
she is not what God intends

at the pass

Posted on by under God, Struggles

i’m not a strong man
when i push down
get up again

but the hardest thing
is seeing you smile through
tears of my intent

are you ok?
i did not mean it
i’m sorry

please won’t you stay?
i’d quit betting on me…

here are scars from fights we’ve won
here are scars from nights i’ve run
but head me off at the pass

i’m a rat born into a maze
i don’t know any other way

don’t question the walls
or the end of my days
i can’t see anything but yesterday

the ground will shake beneath my feet
the nations will fall in flames

but cover me up in your promises
and tell me again how you know my name

here are scars from fights we’ve won
here are scars from nights i’ve run
but head me off at the pass

i’ve got so much i want to say to you
but the words all spill out of order
put a hand on my shoulder
You know…

kind of guy

Posted on by under Girls, Sad


i’m not the kind of guy girls kiss
not the kind they wish for
i’m not the kind of guy girls miss
i’m the one that convinces them they deserve more

i’m the guy that they let inside
i’m the one who sees their souls
i’m the phonecall when they need to cry
not the guy that they need to hold

so i’m ‘that guy’
i am the closest friend
i heal the wounded
and send them to battle again…
fine.

i’m not the kind of guy girls dream of
i’m the kind of guy they ignore
i’m not the kind of guy girls love
i’m the kind of guy that girls adore

i see the beauty that sets them apart
and they waste it on the wrong kind
i’m not the guy that breaks their hearts
i’m the guy that they leave behind

i am me

Posted on by under Struggles


i want to change
i want to be someone else
than this who i’ve become
slowly sliding into me

i aim to climb
into the cockpit of a bird
that can fly higher than i
have ever hoped to see

but i am me
unfortunately
all things turn
around me
i am and will always be
me

here is the mask
i wear outside
when the weather calls
for the slightest bit of pride

here is the mask
i where when i’m real
i’ve grown up in costumes
don’t know how to feel for real

glorify

Posted on by under Faith, God


God, i speak to You in a breaking voice
selfishly searching for reasons to rejoice
Your name, Your reputation, made so weak in my hands
the skeptics look – think they understand

but let it not be a question of me
but brighter shine your unmockable glory
this life, it is not given to see what we might do
and i know that i will give it back to you

as i breathe and speak and die
as i sing and laugh and cry
i will keep Your name held high
above all else i’ll glorify

promises fade, they fall apart
i build up walls around my beating heart
You watch me carry the flag of Your name
i take my falls, why must You take the blame?

no bumper sticker, no bold tatoo
could never say anymore about You
than my life when viewed from the outside
by those who seek, what i try to hide

Yours

Posted on by under Girls, Love, My Favorites

 


i was never good at writing love songs
i didn’t really know how to feel
i never felt ready, or worthy i guess
i never thought my feelings were real

but i love you, yes, i know that now
i can’t resist or run away
thoughts of you are here in the morning
here at night when i kneel to pray

i am yours for the taking
yours for the breaking
yours no matter what you do
i’ll always love you

you walked a journey to get here
sometimes you followed, sometimes you led
as much as i try to protect you
sometimes you cried and you bled

my arms are open for you
i can’t pretend to resist
wrap yourself up in my adoration
know when in blink, for that instant, you are missed Continue reading →

show me

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

nothing seems less fair
than these tears that fall
i was on my best behavior
still not good enough
for You
who watches us unfold
and lay bare in open day
cringe and crinkle in the flames
no, still not worthy
nothing i have earned
to keep me happy, keep me saved
keep me from being burned
it’s only You
who pull me higher
only You who demands my desire
above healing of old wounds
i want You to come back soon
and explain to me why
i let myself down
and give pieces of me away
to all the wrong people
who can’t be trusted
with what You made
this sad mess of a man
but You see more in me
than i could ever dream
show me
a frame from a better day
a glimpse of when i let go
and let You lead the way

friday the 13th

Posted on by under Struggles

i’m a little bit lonely
i’m a little bit down
tonight i regret
ever coming to this town

i know it’s not real
just one of my moods
not a bad life
just bad attitude

but i can’t help the wishing
the aching for a friend today
to call me cause they can’t
seem to stay away

bad luck, i guess for me
the legend of the day
i feel like believing it
to give me something to say

something i can blame
when this silence settles in
something i can use
when i can’t find a friend