great but not good

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad


she squeezed my hand when she broke my heart
and she rattled on like it made sense
to refer to us in the past tense

and she repeated her reasons till they got old
i laughed ’cause they were so absurd
the weakest excuse i’ve ever heard

she said i’m great
but not good enough for her
it’s not me – no she said it was her
so i nod like i understand
then i let go of her hand
great, but not good enough

she stopped to take a cellphone call
she whispered, “yeah, we’re almost done”
i muttered, “what, you’re not having fun?”

she sighed and told me don’t be bitter
it was then that i asked for the check
and rubbed a bit at the pain in my neck

she said i’m great
but not good enough for her
it’s not me – no she said it was her
so i nod like i understand
then i let go of her hand
great, but not good enough

don’t tell me

Posted on by under friends

 


in the soft stone of my heart
there’s etched a memory
of you and me
red with laughter

and now we’re so far apart
phonelines bring you to me
you don’t know what to say
funny thing, i know just what you mean

but don’t tell me you’re lonely
cause i’m way over here
and don’t let me catch you crying
cause i can’t reach those tears

it’s been my way to risk it all
and maybe fall flat on my face
yeah the glory or the gutter
i need to put a smile on your face

but maybe i try too hard
maybe you must go through
this battle that you’re fighting
i can’t come to the rescue

colorado

Posted on by under friends

 

she felt the breath on her wild chilled cheek
he’d found the courage to speak
she could not look him in the eye
he’d just smile and say, ‘don’t cry’
she did not think this kind of night
would see everything turn right
he puts his hand up on her knee
and forever is a memory

he’d fallen for her so long ago
and here she was, his world
his lips just brushed her hair
and he whispered, “will you be my girl?”
and she smiled

the sun was coming to chase away
the moonlight that begged them to stay
he kissed her softly, as if to say
we’ll finish this some other day
she waits by the window, frees up the phone
but never again will she be alone
he’s thinking of her, how she almost cried
he’s coming back to claim his bride

be the beep

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad

 

i would have saddled up
and ridden off into the sunset
knowing you would not forget me

oh but i don’t want to go
are you sure we’re moving on?
never thought the ending would feel so wrong

i don’t want to be the beep
that interrupts your boyfriend
so all my dreams i’ll keep
until we talk again
so i guess this is goodbye
as long as you’re happy

i can’t find a reason to think
it’s better to walk away
or the hope to believe you want me to stay

but if you ever need me
don’t hesitate to call
if he breaks your heart
or if you marry in the fall

just stay

Posted on by under Girls, Love


it’s a cold wind out, baby
just stay by the fire
it’s icing over, baby
just stay where it’s drier

baby, you don’t need to go
anyting can be postponed
put down the keys, please
don’t leave me all alone

just stay
and feel safe a little more
just stay
on this side of the door

theres wolves out tonight
stay where they can’t run
it’s dangerous out there
stay here untill they’re done

baby, what’s the rush?
we have the time to kill
tip the empty hourglass
until we have our fill

just stay
a minute, second more
just stay
on this side ofthe door

fault

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

one crack in the wall means the death of the dam
and i feel the fissures in all that i am
i can’t let go of what should float away

these waves are relentless, they pound the shore
a stronger man could stand for more
but i crumble and fall into the sea
but the waters NEVER rise above me

you told me i’d make it
if i just held on
it’s my faults
i couldn’t last that long

so just don’t make things ok again
i need creation, not just ammends
don’t paint me over in pure bright white

but give me the fire i dread like death
give me the birth i crave like breath
melt my walls and make them new
so the world will know i stand for You

tell me i’ll make it
if i just hold on
fix my faults
so i can’t last that long

don’t want to

Posted on by under Faith, God

 


i don’t want to close my eyes
to make You more real to me
cause if i believe then i believe
You’re strong enough to make me see

i don’t want to sit in silence
cause i want to know You so much
i’ll believe the whispers of my mind
use the calm as a crutch

but You held Peter above the waves
when the storm would have him drown
so i believe that You can save me
from his shaky ground

the landmines of logic are waiting
for my fragile faith to fall
i know that only a fool
thinks he knows it all

but the mountains aren’t moving
and grandma still died
sometimes it’s too dark to see
You’re still my guide

dying of vows

Posted on by under Girls, God, Sad

 


we’ve watched these ships set sail from shore
happy, frail, and searching for more
sometimes the waves pull them apart
two pulled from the wreckage of one broken heart

God, we’re scared to venture out to sea
what if we miss what’s meant to be
so many ships never make it home
are we better off here alone?

but you hear the whispers my soul speaks
you know i need your strength, i’m weak
God, Your love – never goes away
why is it so hard to make ours stay?

such a fragile thing you’ve given us here
hearts that ache and break and want to near
we toss around love like it’s ok to fail
but you loved enough to take the nails

so many promises turn out as lies
we follow our hearts till we realize
we don’t stop searching for something new
even though we found it all in You

i want the love that only you give
unconcerned with the life i live
a love beyond anything i do
a love that never breaks in two

 

watchmen

Posted on by under Girls, My Favorites, Sad

the watchmen on the wall
trip and fall and crack like glass
and it was my choice
to throw them away or
glue them up for another day

and i let them go, i went unguarded
you hadn’t crossed my border in months
i thought i was through with the enemy
but you weren’t through with me

so maybe it’s my fault
you’re climbing the walls
maybe it’s my fault
my kindom will fall
maybe i brought it all to an end
maybe i’m just glad to see you again

deja vu, i hear the warcry
i smile holds a knife in your teeth
i bar the door and raise the gate
a weak attempt to delay my fate

but you are inside, i have nowhere to hide
drag me out to swear allegience
you’ve taken my castle, you’ve taken my pride
i have to call you queen

twins

Posted on by under Death, My Favorites

can You hear them laughing
we only heard them cry
can they hear us down here
chokin’ back “why?”

and i can’t even tell You how i feel
cause i’m not sure that this is really real
but what’s Yours is Yours to take
what You make is Yours to break

but i can’t lay this in Your hands
God, i just don’t understand
how can this be part of Your plan?

if You’re holding them now
tell them we miss them so
the sweetest souls in heaven
we never got to know

and tell the secret of this lonely place
cause it’s too easy to think it’s all a waste
no answer is comfort to my ears
only time can dry my tears