oh brother

Posted on by under Girls, Sad, Silly Songs



my eyes are closed but they don’t make
the world around me disappear
all of the twists – all of the chances
and i had to end up here

no man can hoard all of his feelings
and cover his vulnerable heart
still there’s that shame in falling
so we hide it from the start

but she – she was almost worth the risk
i saw her as no other
and now – she confesses her feelings
she loves me – like her brother?

her words carry off in an echo
like some punishment that i deserve
cause i had hoped to tell her
but i never had the nerve

and i’m stuck here with a smile
though i know that it’s our end
cause one things for sure -if we won’t be more
we will have to be less (than) friends

our conservation has ended
but we think of some reason to stay
over the phone – so close
so far away

i know how he feels

Posted on by under friends


i know a man
knows where he is
knows where he’s going
all he can see is his

we got to talking
bout how lifes a blur
he says, “boy, time flies”
i said, “sir, yes, sir”

funny, i thought him happy
now he seems so real
never thought i’d say
i know how he feels

i know this guy
the coolest of the cool
always plays the hero
never acts the fool

and then he says her name
it all falls out of place
what is that, frustration
cast upon his face?

funny, i thought him happy
now he seems so real
never thought i’d say
i know how he feels

i know this girl
always a laugh and smile
never far from home
though she went the extra mile

we can talk of futures
but things aren’t as they seem
though she looks content
she sleeps with the wildest dreams

funny, i thought her happy
now she seems so real
never thought i’d say it
but i know how she feels

crap dammit

Posted on by under God, Struggles

i say crap and i say damnit
i say i lost it as if i had it
i can analyze and say i don’t care
truth is i’m still wanting to go out somehwere

all my complaining hasn’t taught me a thing
just like reading a a hymn doesn’t teach me to sing
but i have a car and a nights worth of fuel
but it sits unused cause life is so cruel

it’s that jealousy rising it’s taking it’s toll
my faith is laid waste by the pain in my soul
it sounds poetic and it sounds so dark
but truth is these times leave unerasable marks

i still want to go outside
and i still want to hide
will i ever learn that God wants the best
and stop chasing after the rest?

tuesday

Posted on by under Girls, Sad

who is the villain on a Tuesday afternoon
when the talk we had is over too soon
my eyes sting, washed in regret
my ears echo, the words i can’t forget

now my words land like fists
on the face i would have kissed
and i know – it’s no use to hide the tears
andi know – i may not see you for years

my denial is my chosen path
her way – is to unleash her wrath
it’s too late to say i’m sorry
and i’m too proud to say i’m happy

so i stand and run to hide the tears
and i know i won’t see her your years
but i don’t want to leave it this way
honestly i just want to stay

my girl

Posted on by under Girls, Love


white stockings that stop at the knee
eyes and light up at the sight of me
laughs that are clear and sincere
whispered breaths against my ear

and a green dress with the tiniest stain
she points to it and always explains
and hair that dances along her face
and sways to the music of grace

and joy that shines through the sadness
and peace that withstands the madness
tears that fall with honesty
and hope for what is yet to be

and a smile that melts my day
when eveything doesn’t go my way
i will know her by these signs
i will know she will be mine

the hardest goodbye

Posted on by under Girls, Love, Sad


she was turning right
i was waiting to turn left
i had to look away
to catch my breath

after all i’d been through
waking from a dream
still can’t shake the wish
ignore the feeling

cause she’s taught me much i could never know
lead’s me to places i could never go
she stole my heart when she caught my eye
she will be the hardest goodbye

i saw her follow through
on plans she’d made so young
and i won’t be there to hear
song dance off her tounge

she never chased desires
she surrendered to God’s hand
and now she is my reason
for following His plan

 

wanna give it away

Posted on by under Faith, God


there are whispers in the daylight
saying revolution starts tonight
so watch the sun slowly sink down
and forever change this town

my friends rage into the world
with a song or with the girls
and creation seems to click
for God’s chosen picks

but i just want to give it away
every choice and ever chance
release my tomorrows to the one who can see
trusting God will lead me – home

some people beg my advice
but i’m ready to roll the dice
i know that life could be good
if i just do what i should

tears are useless – this i know
they never show me where to go
yeah, i’ll have to choose someday
but God’s will can make a way

thanks for trying

Posted on by under Girls, Sad

i cough and swallow -what did you say?
you repeat yourself -i kneel and pray

you wanna talk just you and me
what kinda secret could make me so happy?

sugar in my coffee – stirrin’ round
you say you’ve known the way i feel
up end the cup and i suck it down
this nightmare is unreal

but it’s my life now i confess my eye’s on you
at first i thought it was my youth but now i believe it’s true

it’s sad,
but i keep your message on the phone
it’s sad but i play it back
and i don’t feel so alone

so i can’t hide, or i never did
and now you confront me
i’ll just pay the check but
thanks for trying to let me down easy

i’ve been swinging around a bottle you just took out the cork
i’m a spy who lost his cover but still shows up for work

if this were the movies the credits would roll
but if this were the movies you would never have said no

i can’t leave this town for love that i’ve never given voice
i can’t stand to face you but i don’t have a choice

you feel bad about me, dont want it to be this way
so you ask me how i am
well what do you want me to say?

no risk and no rejection means no reward for me
funny, i didn’t take the chance and i lost it all playin’ safety

inspiration for another day

Posted on by under Faith, God, Struggles

what can i say more than thank you?
how can i pay back with sound?
You’ve given me what i can keep
and forever follow round

a photograph on the inside of me
a stil picture of what my life could be
and when i’m sick of the disease
you offer me the remedy

what i can’t find in the times
what i’ve lost along the way
YOu are what can be mine
inspiration for another day

why do i rise but to meet you
what is my breath but your name
every thought meant to please
ever word to fuel the flame

to only see that i’m unworthy
it lends all the more to our gaze
and to know a love so pure
it leads my weak heart to praise

what i can’t find in the times
what i’ve lost along the way
you are what can be mine
inspiration for another day

i will never be

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad


i watched you curse your normal life
i know you wish to be someone’s wife
i watch you

but you think that guys like the girls all wild
and i don’t know how to tell you but you’re just my style

but i will never be the one you don’t want me to be
i’ll never be your crying shoulder
no i – won’t be that guy ; oh i don’t know why
i will never be your crying shoulder

i wish you’d find love at first sight
cause you tell me you haven’t met your mr. right

and sure it hurts when you look right past me
but i don’t know what it is that i want you to see

cause i will never be the one you don’t want me to be
oh i don’t have what you need
no i won’t be that guy – oh i don’t know why
i will never be the man you need

i know just what – what you secretly pray for
you’re so pure – so sweet
and i will not be – be that dream guy
who walks right in – sweeps you off your feet