i wanted that girl

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls


i gotta tell you about the girl
i know what you’re thinking, but you’re right
it didn’t happen all at once
i didn’t fall without a fight

i watched from the back of my mind
she kept playing with her hair
suddenly she smiled at me
come on, that’s just not fair

cause i wanted someone to hold
through the summer heat, winter cold
i wanted that feeling, i wanted that girl
but this story ends in the real world

she said, “i can’t do what i dream”
but then spoke up in poetry
i offered my nice advice
but i could i feel her get to me

she’d claim innocence of the world
and she would prove it with her smiles
and i didn’t care that she didn’t care
nah, that’s just my denial

happy

Posted on by under Girls, Love, Sad

leaves fall at our feet like we’re kings
this walk takes us where we’ve never been
and as i look in your eyes i know…

i know that we will be happy
cause love like this never dies

seasons change but i stay the same
but summertime sends you away
but i know how it will go…

i know that we will be happy
when we’re tired of our separate ways

cold wind blows and the trees are bare again
a year since we walked down this road more than friends
it’s too cold to hope, still i wish…

i wish that i could be happy
but you’re all i think of love
i wish that i could be happy
but i’ve lost my only love

leaves fall at our feet like we’re kings
love like this never dies
love like mine will never die…

didn’t kill me

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad

 


i handed her my heart
folded neatly in half
she said she’d give it some thought
i managed a courteous laugh

but until i heard the answer
i questioned everything
she sat me down and thanked me
but her sweetness had a sting
she explained the time was wrong
i tried to act unbroken
she told me, “hang in there”
i wished i’d never spoken

but it didn’t kill me
it didnt’ kill me – nah

 

she showed up with a story
i didn’t think i’d want to hear
but her true love found another
she wiped away a tear

i sat with stone faced stare
and tried to hide my joy
but my voice was wet with wishing
when i said she’d find her boy
she explained the time was wrong
i tried to act unbroken
she told me, “hang in there”
i wished i’d never spoken

but it didn’t kill me
it didnt’ kill me – nah
though this can’t go on much longer
i believe i’m getting stronger

why it’s quiet

Posted on by under Girls, Love

she leans forward and sighs
says, ‘there’s a hush in here’
i agree but silently
can’t think of a thing to say

if she has to blame someone
i guess i will take it
but i will fight from falling
into what she thinks i am

cause only one of us is keeping secrets
only one of us just can’t forget
we both know somethings wrong here
but only one of us knows why it’s quiet

she can’t start a conversation
she does not want to stay
‘please don’t go’ i whisper low
she doesn’t ask me what i said

deepest fear of hurting her
no, the worst fear she won’t care
why can’t i talk to her
when she runs her finger through her hair

stronger than destiny

Posted on by under Faith, God

won’t you tell me why
the world wants to fall
the apple’s off the tree
we’ve swallowed it, seeds and all

oh we think that we’re better than Adam
cause we’ve lived and learned
we’ve climbed so high, yet
we’re still destined to burn

cause feel the chest man, one rib short
woman feel the pain
this child that we’re birthing
oh we dare not speak his name

but i know – someone
stronger – than what we’ve done
He’s stonger than tragedy
stronger than our destiny

won’t you tell me why
we’re pretend we’re doing fine
we can’t turn off the tears
by closing our eyes

everything we celebrate
is turning on its fans
every cheer we send up calls
for the end of man

so don’t look so shocked
when the fire lights the sky
cause nothing is so flammable
as this society’s lies

standing still

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

i’m a leaf caught in the wind
surrendering the all of me
to the breezes of these times
i miss the security of the tree

i don’t want divine rejection
i want to be right at first
but with every choice it’s harder
to imagine things much worse

so maybe i want pity
cause i’m lost without His will
can i be running from God
standing still?

i’m so afraid of hearing no
that i doubt i’ll hear a yes
it’s a mystery why some He shelters
and others aren’t so blessed

but a powerful God should know that
my heart cries out so pure
the deepest sorrow from the sick
is the existence of lost cures

so maybe i want pity
cause i’m lost without God’s will
can i be running from Him
standing still

many will say i’m choosing
a blindness to the signs
many will tell me give to God
what i still must hold to be mine

just don’t lie

Posted on by under friends, Struggles

i can see something surfacing
it’s in the way you sigh
but i’m bothered the silence
cause you’re just being polite

i would rather nurse hurt feelings
than suffer a broken heart
i would sooner you wound my pride
than fear we’ll always be apart

honestly, i want someone to be honest with me
i’ve dealt with fantasy, give me reality
don’t mind the tears in my eyes – just don’t lie

the conversation is over
but no one’s said goodbye
i’m waiting for some reason
as the seconds tick on by

it’s not right to keep it in
tell me what i need to hear
don’t hide it under laughter
don’t don’t worry about my fears

dream guy

Posted on by under Girls, My Favorites, Sad

 


you want a surprise?
look deep in my eyes
i’ve always had feelings for you

every crush you claim
leads me to the flames
it hurts to hear what they do

you want your man
you’ve made your plans
i hope your wishes all come true
but i don’t care about your dream guy
it’s not me, now don’t tell me why
i’d change for you
if you want me to
but i won’t ever be right

will he be there
if you cut your hair
maybe – he might

you put up a front
to get what you want
a prince and love at first sight
but i don’t care about your dream guy
it’s not me, now don’t tell me why

 

ten minutes

Posted on by under Girls, Sad


you’re standing there
staring at your shoes
you ask me if there’s anything more

all i know
is i don’t wanna lose you
all i do – is watch you walk the floor

and the right words seem to wait
until it’s just too late

but now ….please

talk to me ten minutes after goodbye
maybe then i’ll know what to say
talk to me ten minutes after you leave
and i’ll make you stay

i called your name
but you were out of range
or maybe you just didn’t want to hear

all my claims
that i was gonna change
and it’ll be better this year

now you’re gone and i don’t understand
why i’m quiet – why i cannot win your hand

but now….please

talk to me ten minutes after goodbye
maybe then i’ll know what to say
talk to me ten minutes after you leave
and i’ll make you stay

good boy

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Girls, God

i went to church this morning
to chase a trace of some joy
i stayed through sunday school
oh – i was a good boy

i volunteered for the nursery
gonna pick up the toys
i’m coming back wednesday too
cause you know i’m a good boy

but all this doing the walk
oh i’m really only chasing (her)
this good i’ve done
with the wrong motivation

i stayed to help fold the chairs
cause she was there
i carried groceries up the stairs
cause she’d be there

i’m passing out Bibles on the street
cause she is there
and i’m at a meeting – on my knees
to offer up my most selfish prayers

all this doing the walk
oh i’m really only chasing (her)
this good i’ve done
with the wrong motivation