prodigal’s poker face

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God


sit down to the table
tell y’all my name
be nice to me please
i’m new to the game

ante up – for the priveledge
something – i’m willing to lose
slide the cards to me
i’m ready to choose

but all at once it is so clear
i’m in over my head
betting on shallow
but sinking so deep
and we’re playing for keeps

walk off like a good sport
trying not to cry
my pockets are empty
my well’s run dry

thought i would shock the world
knew i would pay a price
but it’s all over after
one roll of the dice

but now i know – it is so clear
i’m in over my head
betting on shallow, but sinking so deep
we were playing for keeps

trying to win back my pride
tossing my caution aside
i was never meant to be in this town
i left home – i let them down

one and only

Posted on by under Girls, Love, Sad


i didn’t know her name
when she made me pray
when she waved at me like she
was in a parade

like an angel touching down
she stood out from the crowd
i wanted to follow her home
a girl like that should never be alone

i knew that girl would be
my one and only
i knew that girl would be
my one and only

so i spent my time on her
my investment yielded no return
i tore her picture from my wall
but i found no flame to burn

then she saw me standing there
guess she noticed my stare
then she spoke the words that made all right
do you think we could go out tonight?

so i treated her like royalty
and she up and left the throne
i, the jester, executed
with, “can’t you just leave me alone?”

my friends say there’s always more
lie about the line outside the door
they speak of fish in a big blue sea
but i know that’s not for me

Oh she will always be
my one and only.

no more west

Posted on by under Struggles


hitch up the wagons
we’re headed west
out where i man can meet his test (yeah)

bid farewell
to the house the city
as they say, “it’s such a pity” (yeah)

we’re driving across the land
holding the reigns with both hands
we’re staring into the sunset
but there’s no more west

stop at the shoreline
time to sink or swim
and the dusk is growing dim

we’ve been here before
times were hard, we were soft
but every cliff we came to, we never had to jump off

at dawn we see what we’ve passed
a land of brave and free
and we can’t quite come to believe
this is our destiny

deliverance

Posted on by under God, Struggles

 

I read
You said
I’ll deliver you

I read
You said
I’ll be the one to pull you through
but that was back with Moses
and all those Hebrews
back then they had the plagues
how could they lose

but i could use some of that deliverance now

standing on the shores
of an ocean all my own
when will i ever learn

God please part the waters
I can’t cross over alone
Bridges that i thought you said to burn

 

time’s gone by
since their cry
but you sent your son to save
this ocean won’t part
but you’re here in my heart
and i’m standing on the waves
i can see how Peter did it
I can’t keep my eyes on you
just when i think i’ve got it
you’re not in my view
but i could use some of that deliverance now

standing on the waves
of an ocean all my own
when will i ever learn

God please part the waters
I can’t cross over alone
Bridges that I thought you said burn

 

Jesus, My Deliver
See me – in this land
My soul cries for freedom
Only found in your hand
 

 

Anyone

Posted on by under Girls, Love


i forgot to ask you one thing
but now it’s gone from me
lets just talk some time away
though the words are empty

ok you got me – i’m found out
my excuse was just no good
but hear me out – before you shout
i’m just doing what i should

anyone would call you up
just to hear your voice
anyone would follow you
like they didn’t have a choice
i’m just like all the rest
when all the rest- they find the best

i always thought you knew
anyone would fall in love with you

where do we go from here
lets leave it all unspoken
you won’t talk and i keep
my heart from being broken

oh – you had to go and look up
with the answer in your eyes
let me share my motive
you look too surprised

anyone would call you up
just to hear your voice
anyone would follow you
like they didn’t have a choice
i’m just like all the rest
when all the rest – they find the best

i always thought you knew
anyone would fall in love with you

sittin’ with an angel

Posted on by under Girls, Love

i’m sittin’ with an angel
stood up by my friends
waiting for some signal
here we go again

skip ahead to dinner
anything but a date
i listen for 2 hours
till we agree it’s getting late

don’t you know i prayed for this to happen
now my answers sittin’ here
with all my feelings for her
when it’s real – i only feel
fear.

we pay and leave for home
still can’t believe the truth
i glance at her smile and then
i have my proof

a blessing has been given me
its coming to and end
we say our goodbyes to the night
and leave closer friends

don’t you know i prayed for this to happen
now my answers sittin’ here
with all my feelings for her
when it’s real – i only feel…
fear.

thank you

Posted on by under Faith, God, Struggles


God stop me if You’ve heard
these painful desperate words
but this life it seems so rotten
is there something You’ve forgotten?

i lack enough to curse what i keep
but own enough to let me sleep
sometimes when i feel stripped bare
i wonder why You just don’t care

but God thank you for this day
thank you for this season
thank you – even though
I can’t think of a reason

i watch those in Your pleasure
sporting more than i can measure
and while i feel so out of touch
i’ve never needed You so much

there’s a couple at my table
and i don’t think I’m able
to believe there’s one for me
and I won’t always be this lonely

God thank You for this day
Thank You for Your promise
Thank you – You wanna prosper me
it won’t always be like this

i’m not that kind of guy

Posted on by under Girls, Sad

i asked her one question
she answered my three
there’s no room left for me

but how do i argue
the logic of my need
and not appear to beg and plead

still she tries to explain
but the reason is too clear
and it is just how i feared

i’m not the kind of guy she falls for
she’s looking for less, she’s looking for more
now i have tarnished what little we had
i am hurt and she feels bad

they say the truth stings
just a little at first
but keeping secrets is much worse

yeah, silence does stagnate
it taints all my thoughts
till i can believe things i should not

but i spit out the words
that i should have swallowed
i abandoned plans i should have followed

i’m not the kind of guy she falls for
she’s looking for less, she’s looking for more
now i have tarnished what little we had
i am hurt and she feels bad

don’t compromise

Posted on by under friends, Girls, Hope, Love, My Favorites

 


never thought i’d start a journey
like the one i’m going through
never knew i could dream so big
till i met you

but i saw deep in your eyes
a fire beneath the blue
you say you only want
someone to marry you
but don’t compromise
for some of those guys
hold on – it can’t be far
to someone who loves you
the way you are
honestly, i can’t understand
why you’re still alone
you’re a beauty, but beyond
you’re the sweetest girl i’ve known

i can’t offer answers
i won’t share my dream
lets just things aren’t as hopeless
as they seem
don’t compromise
for some of those guys
just go to the well with your jar
God’s sending someone to meet you
right where you are

 

better than the belly of a whale

Posted on by under God, Struggles

 

engine off – i have arrived
in a land i will never leave
open the door – out to explore
but God i can hardly breathe

is this my destination
the map was not too clear
this land is cruel and i’m out of fuel
guess i’m stuck here

but God, i cry for You now
rescue me, or show me how
how this is not a fail
how this is better than the belly of a whale

do i have a mission?
or should i already know
it’s so strange that i have changed
still have to be told where to go

so i’ll reach out to the lost
though i don’t really feel that found
i will not tame or abandon my claim
to my flag in the ground

 

well i’m supposed to be too old to cry
i’m supposed to be too wise for why
but the struggle for what is true
God it seems harder than running from You