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the party

Posted on by under friends, Girls, Love, My Favorites


the evening raced to midnight
now you sense each second pass
an awkward cough, an “i should go”
i goodbye on the grass

talelights fade behind the bend
you know this day is done
the lights are off, the door is locked
you don’t pick up the fun

it’s cluttered on the floor
like some old memory
you’ll clean up in the morning
for tonight just leave it be

lay your head down, drift to dream
stay anchored on the night
the words, the tone, the meaning
she will, she won’t …she might

did you make a fool of love
could see what you pretend
is this feeling finally real
or just another friend?

song for the ignored

Posted on by under Girls, My Favorites, Sad

i squeeze every ounce of joy
out of my day to hand to you
you swallow it and smile
a runner with one less mile

but deeper words lie like seeds
you don’t have time to sort through
i have to keep it shallow
if i’m going to keep you

tell me that i matter
tell me that you care
tell me that you miss me
whenever i’m not there

but i hide my hurt from healers
secret wounds from friendly fire
if they knew they’d say walk away
but you are my heart’s desire

i walk into traps, i know the danger
you love who i am, but not me
i can’t ever ask you to…
so i smuggle my dreams inside memories

reach

Posted on by under Faith, God

if i climbed to the highest
would you know my name
if i hid in the lowest
would you still see my shame?

if i cry cause i’m lonely
would you send a friend
if i tell her goodbye
will i see her again?

why waste my wonder
on the skies i live under
cause You’re tryin’ to teach
let go of what is out of Your reach

if i walked in the fire
could you cool the flames
if i fell to the lions
would you make them tame?

if i follow my heart
will it be my guide
if i fell from the path
will you know that i tried

 

if i walked away
would you not give chase
if i was lost in the would
could i find your grace

if i could step from this land
and shake off the dust
if i could wake in a dream
i would still need You, Jesus

no fool

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls

i writing more than i thought i could
i’m saying more than i probably should
maybe i will keep rambling on
till you come back to tell me you’re gone

yeah, you can tap me on the shoulder
and say, “look, we all grow older”
if you’re tired of reading my letters
filled with hope that things will get better

i guess i’m happier being sad
my only chance to make you feel bad
but i’m no fool, i know i know
you’re gone…for good…. for good.

you’re in love again, maybe for real
do you honestly tell him how you feel?
or let him guess like you did to me
i still speak of you hopefully

everyone thinks this is a just a phase
denial is help through the darker days
that’s what they whisper, yeah, i know
they say i haven’t yet let you go

meant the world

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad


so you ascended endless stairs
promises that proved out lies
you climbed higher than having to care
i couldn’t follow (believe me i tried)
i stumbled up to see your face
feeling unfit to leave the ground
your apathy i labelled grace
your words tore my wisdom down

you meant the world to me
but now the opposites true
everything i see
tells a tale of you

like a balloon is chased by children
you chose the freedom of the wind
never one for strong opinions
i cannot catch you on a pin
pull me by a heart-tied string
promise me that you will stay
burdened with the gifts i bring
you float far enough away

heaven

Posted on by under Faith, God, Hope

i wake in dreams and weep for joy
my sight no hope could hold
i see bright streets with crowds in song
the end of my road so long
and pierced hands pull faith from doubt
to lead a child home

no shame of self, no sad looks back
clear streams wash the past off of me
a new sun dawns the land in gold
a child is led home…

by pierced hands.

choice

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God

 


i’m not a child full of fear
with monsters in my closet
i’m not a soldier in the trench
praying the line holds tonight

but i hide like a prisoner
when the warden says it’s time
i’m a guilty man running
from the music

i’m afraid you’ll find me
and ask me to explain
i’m afraid you’ll bind me
maybe it’s better that way

but no, you had to give me
a choice that i might not choose you
no, you had to give me
a voice that i could deny you
but i wouldn’t be loving you
if i didn’t choose to

i’m absorbed by the silence
there is nothing new to say
my heart spilled its feelings
a year ago today

clutching it close to my chest
i whisper i’m letting it go
not strong enough to surrender
not brave enough to run

i’m afraid you’ll find me
tear it from my fists
i wish you’d stand behind me
and push me through this

maybe it’s better that way…

be who i am

Posted on by under Girls, Sad, Struggles


i think of you when i’m lonely
when i have a story to tell
i could always get a laugh from you
like water from a well

wrap my words around you
like a blanket keep you warm
hold my love over your head
like shelter from the storm

but i need you…to hold my hand
and say it’s ok…if i don’t understand
i need you to whisper “i love you”
i need you be….who i’ve been for you

the lover and the loser
both can be a fool
with a shiny prize
we overlook the rules

i never thought it was game
until you did not want to play
i never knew till know
i can’t get back what i gave away

All Over Me

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Sad

she doesn’t think about me anymore
there ain’t gonna be a phonecall
no letter to see what i’m up to today
no postcard she bought at the mall

i like to think it’s still an issue
that she wants to go back again
but it’s only a dream that we could be
anything, even just friends

she’s all over me
i can’t get her out of my mind
she’s all over me
i’ve been left behind
she’s all over me
she’s over me

she’s a rainy day hobby i try to fix
and work it out 1000 different ways
i am so close to find out
what i could have done to make her stay

everything holds her reflection
i just want to be left alone
but i gave my heart to her
so i guess i can’t hold my own

tell me what’s wrong

Posted on by under friends, Struggles

you’ll have to try harder to hold me
i’m getting better at running away
i cannot see how it all works out
i don’t believe a thing that you say

if i am special, then i’m rare
and that makes me harder to find
but i’ve been picked up and put down
i have been left behind

tell me something that i know to be true
say i’m broken and i don’t know what to do
i want to believe you
so tell me what’s wrong…..with me

like old Rip Van, i’m up and confused
i feel a hope that beaten and bruised
still i slip it on with a big grin
no matter what i’m holding in

you would shoot in like the sunshine
you’d convince me to see everything bright
now it’s a fake, tired old line
your more of a flourescent light