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guess i’ll let you go

Posted on by under Girls, Love, My Favorites, Sad


i’m keeping a straight face
i’m playing it cool
but you turn my strength
into the hope of a fool

how could you call me
with nothing to say
but i’m not admitting
you made my day

how are ya doing?
we can’t talk long
i’m glad you called
no, nothing wrong
i can’t let you know….
so i guess i’ll let you go

risk means reward, right?
when why do i lose?
i don’t sit on the shelf
waiting for you to choose

if i show you my heart
you’ll leave me alone
so i’m keeping these secrets
on my telephone

calling to hear your voice

Posted on by under friends, Girls, Sad


i want to cry on your shoulder
and tell you about my day
i want you to hold me
and say “everything’s ok!”

but i can’t do that anymore
in 5 minutes over phonelines
these days i only get
time enough to say goodbye

and i don’t have anything new for you
i’m just calling to hear your voice
you’re sunshine to these shadows
and i have no choice but to miss you

the days grow shorter, the skies grow grey
the sun never seemed to so far away
and i heard rumors that you were crying
but if i asked, you wouldn’t say

i’d love for you to bring me down
and tell me why you cry
let me try to change your mind
i want to dry your eyes

you know

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

i think i’ve stayed up too late tonight
all my fears echo round in my head
i’m lonely, so lonely
but all of my friends are in bed

so i’m sending this weak prayer
with my face buried in my hands
everyone’s gone away from me
God i hope you understand

You know…. how it feels

sometimes this world gets mean to me
and it feels like more than i can take
i open, open up my heart
only to have it break

in my selfishness
i don’t know if you’ll get this
but i leaned in
for the goodbye kiss

i hope you understand
what it’s like to be a man…

you know.

cold weather

Posted on by under Death

 


cold weather comes
sliding down that hill
and barges through open doors
like bad news

cold weather flees
in one morning of sun
high in blue sky
it’s gone

like the giants of cities now fallen
giving everbody stories
of the day without smiles
there was a day without smiles

cold weather comes
sliding down that hill
and barges through open doors
like bad news

how hard

Posted on by under Girls, Sad


the leaves are losing color
soon they’ll cover lawns
but without you, it feels like
more than a season is gone

you write me letters
to keep me closer than a memory
i keep them in a notebook
labeled “Ancient History”

i guess i’ve kept my secret
i hope i will forget
i hope you never know
how hard it is to let you go

the sky was clear this morning
no clouds were bringing rain
but everything must change
now i hear the roar of planes

and i’d fly out to see you
if i had anything to say
but i ….i can wait
until your wedding day

flight 93

Posted on by under Death

kiss me, my darling, before i go
my flight leaves at 8 am
i’ll see you when i get home
i’ll call you from the west coast

and when i say i love you
it’s for always
starting today

hey there, it’s me, from the air
i just called to say…i miss you
i’ll hope that you will be….

happy.

so kiss me, my darling, before i go

fix you

Posted on by under friends, God

i whispered for you this afternoon
i handed a prayer to eager hands
God held it to His ear
smiled, and sent His angels

clouds broke open and showered down
but sunshine found your frown
all the while i thought of you
life will turn around

i’m here for you
no matter what you do
but i can’t fix you
but i can’t fix you

you walk in darkness in search of light
i saw you stumbling, afraid
trusting lies that hold your hand
leading you out of the promised land

so i am a sympathetic ear
telling you what you don’t want to hear
you are lost, yes you’re alone
but there’s no reason to fear

Any Good

Posted on by under Faith, God, My Favorites


moses was a killer out on the lamb
he stunk of sheep in the desert heat
You came in a flame, the great I AM
and Your holiness washed under his feet

david, he was working out in the fields
while his brothers lined up to be king
You led him to a giant, led him to the throne
to God alone goes the glory

now i see why You choose losers
God, it’s not what i do
if any good be found in me, it’s You

you know peter tried, but got it wrong
he kept making promises he couldn’t keep
You know he denied, and he fell asleep
three 2nd chances, “if you love me, feed my sheep”

gideon, he was weakest – weakest in the land
but you called him to victory
still he had no skill, no steadfast will
to God alone be the glory

bumblebee

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls

 


i will not call you anymore (because it’s dangerous)
i will not climb a mountain just to try to fly
i promise i won’t look for you to love me
and i will not hate to hear goodbye

if you need me i am here for you (as always)
but if you need well then things are not the same
if you call me, i know the reason is selfish
if you play, i lose the game

we have been the best of friends and enemies
we have been angry and content
we have been nothing but a fantasy
we’ve been words that were never meant

you can go on living like a bumblebee
you can float from flower to flower and sting me
you can test the choices and find me true
you can write off my advice as jealousy

i’m weak to your memory (i can’t hide from it)
i’m hopeless when i try to be just friends
i’m hanging by a thread, share your life with me
i’m not willing to go through this again
i’m not willing to go through this again
i’m not willing to go through this….

we will rebuild

Posted on by under Death, Hope

i’m struck by the beauty i now see in you
i’ve long ignored the red white and blue
has someone switched you in the night?
i see you new by the dawn’s early light

rubble and reasons that do not stand
life slips out of a grasping hand
planes that turn and terrorize
dry are empty, tearless eyes

we will rebuild
a peace taken by fear
we will rebuild
and we’re still here

under your colors that wave in the wind
we fight in a war we did not begin
a spotlight to shadows, darkness will flee
we bury the brave and we rally the free

over our shoulder we carry you on
we raise you high, plant you on lawns
our sorrow is strong, but so are you
the beautiful red, the white, the blue