Tag Archives: my stuff

at the pass

Posted on by under God, Struggles

i’m not a strong man
when i push down
get up again

but the hardest thing
is seeing you smile through
tears of my intent

are you ok?
i did not mean it
i’m sorry

please won’t you stay?
i’d quit betting on me…

here are scars from fights we’ve won
here are scars from nights i’ve run
but head me off at the pass

i’m a rat born into a maze
i don’t know any other way

don’t question the walls
or the end of my days
i can’t see anything but yesterday

the ground will shake beneath my feet
the nations will fall in flames

but cover me up in your promises
and tell me again how you know my name

here are scars from fights we’ve won
here are scars from nights i’ve run
but head me off at the pass

i’ve got so much i want to say to you
but the words all spill out of order
put a hand on my shoulder
You know…

kind of guy

Posted on by under Girls, Sad


i’m not the kind of guy girls kiss
not the kind they wish for
i’m not the kind of guy girls miss
i’m the one that convinces them they deserve more

i’m the guy that they let inside
i’m the one who sees their souls
i’m the phonecall when they need to cry
not the guy that they need to hold

so i’m ‘that guy’
i am the closest friend
i heal the wounded
and send them to battle again…
fine.

i’m not the kind of guy girls dream of
i’m the kind of guy they ignore
i’m not the kind of guy girls love
i’m the kind of guy that girls adore

i see the beauty that sets them apart
and they waste it on the wrong kind
i’m not the guy that breaks their hearts
i’m the guy that they leave behind

i am me

Posted on by under Struggles


i want to change
i want to be someone else
than this who i’ve become
slowly sliding into me

i aim to climb
into the cockpit of a bird
that can fly higher than i
have ever hoped to see

but i am me
unfortunately
all things turn
around me
i am and will always be
me

here is the mask
i wear outside
when the weather calls
for the slightest bit of pride

here is the mask
i where when i’m real
i’ve grown up in costumes
don’t know how to feel for real

glorify

Posted on by under Faith, God


God, i speak to You in a breaking voice
selfishly searching for reasons to rejoice
Your name, Your reputation, made so weak in my hands
the skeptics look – think they understand

but let it not be a question of me
but brighter shine your unmockable glory
this life, it is not given to see what we might do
and i know that i will give it back to you

as i breathe and speak and die
as i sing and laugh and cry
i will keep Your name held high
above all else i’ll glorify

promises fade, they fall apart
i build up walls around my beating heart
You watch me carry the flag of Your name
i take my falls, why must You take the blame?

no bumper sticker, no bold tatoo
could never say anymore about You
than my life when viewed from the outside
by those who seek, what i try to hide

Yours

Posted on by under Girls, Love, My Favorites

 


i was never good at writing love songs
i didn’t really know how to feel
i never felt ready, or worthy i guess
i never thought my feelings were real

but i love you, yes, i know that now
i can’t resist or run away
thoughts of you are here in the morning
here at night when i kneel to pray

i am yours for the taking
yours for the breaking
yours no matter what you do
i’ll always love you

you walked a journey to get here
sometimes you followed, sometimes you led
as much as i try to protect you
sometimes you cried and you bled

my arms are open for you
i can’t pretend to resist
wrap yourself up in my adoration
know when in blink, for that instant, you are missed Continue reading →

show me

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

nothing seems less fair
than these tears that fall
i was on my best behavior
still not good enough
for You
who watches us unfold
and lay bare in open day
cringe and crinkle in the flames
no, still not worthy
nothing i have earned
to keep me happy, keep me saved
keep me from being burned
it’s only You
who pull me higher
only You who demands my desire
above healing of old wounds
i want You to come back soon
and explain to me why
i let myself down
and give pieces of me away
to all the wrong people
who can’t be trusted
with what You made
this sad mess of a man
but You see more in me
than i could ever dream
show me
a frame from a better day
a glimpse of when i let go
and let You lead the way

friday the 13th

Posted on by under Struggles

i’m a little bit lonely
i’m a little bit down
tonight i regret
ever coming to this town

i know it’s not real
just one of my moods
not a bad life
just bad attitude

but i can’t help the wishing
the aching for a friend today
to call me cause they can’t
seem to stay away

bad luck, i guess for me
the legend of the day
i feel like believing it
to give me something to say

something i can blame
when this silence settles in
something i can use
when i can’t find a friend

let them down

Posted on by under friends


well i think there was a time when i
had the hope enough to wonder why
we have to battle every day
some to leave, some to stay

but now i let my wishes die
like santa claus and learning to fly
we aren’t worthy of our dreams
or reality

so let me twist the arm of fate
i’m always the one to wait
they always trust i will remain
silent in sunlight, supportive in rain

i’ve made promises that i might break
even the earth has been known to quake
but how do i go about letting them down
when they call – i’m always around

so please take me away
or someone please ask me to stay
i need a reason to think that i
deserve much more than being passed by

but i want to let them down….

bus stop

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad

 

we can hurt so bad so fast
but it takes so long to heal
we can stay away from the pain
but then it gets so hard to feel

’cause that’s just what living is
it’s learning from our mistakes
it’s swearing you are the one
then hearing the snap of a heartbreak

have i waited 30 days just for a phonecall?
cause you just called to say hi

i’m all packed
and waiting at the bus stop
but you were just driving by

see i’m not better or over you
i’m still mad that you’re oblivious
so please just don’t call me back
until you are over us

like the moon outside the window
you’re like a glow in my mind
the dull transparent light
that reminds me of you
but i’m through…

my place in your day

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad

i pinned my heart one night to a wall
woke up in time to hear it fall
surprised that it happened again so quick
i beat that disease, but now i’m sick

and i held my ground like an alamo
defending the lie that i could let you go
but the days come rushing in around me
i’m reminded of what faded silently

there is no use in apologies
for you weren’t wounded, only me
and i am the one that fixes you
now i’m bleeding, what can i do?

but wrap up memories like a tourniquet
and be the friend you will never forget
and that is enough for me to survive
my place in your day, it keeps me alive