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be the beep

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad

 

i would have saddled up
and ridden off into the sunset
knowing you would not forget me

oh but i don’t want to go
are you sure we’re moving on?
never thought the ending would feel so wrong

i don’t want to be the beep
that interrupts your boyfriend
so all my dreams i’ll keep
until we talk again
so i guess this is goodbye
as long as you’re happy

i can’t find a reason to think
it’s better to walk away
or the hope to believe you want me to stay

but if you ever need me
don’t hesitate to call
if he breaks your heart
or if you marry in the fall

just stay

Posted on by under Girls, Love


it’s a cold wind out, baby
just stay by the fire
it’s icing over, baby
just stay where it’s drier

baby, you don’t need to go
anyting can be postponed
put down the keys, please
don’t leave me all alone

just stay
and feel safe a little more
just stay
on this side of the door

theres wolves out tonight
stay where they can’t run
it’s dangerous out there
stay here untill they’re done

baby, what’s the rush?
we have the time to kill
tip the empty hourglass
until we have our fill

just stay
a minute, second more
just stay
on this side ofthe door

fault

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

one crack in the wall means the death of the dam
and i feel the fissures in all that i am
i can’t let go of what should float away

these waves are relentless, they pound the shore
a stronger man could stand for more
but i crumble and fall into the sea
but the waters NEVER rise above me

you told me i’d make it
if i just held on
it’s my faults
i couldn’t last that long

so just don’t make things ok again
i need creation, not just ammends
don’t paint me over in pure bright white

but give me the fire i dread like death
give me the birth i crave like breath
melt my walls and make them new
so the world will know i stand for You

tell me i’ll make it
if i just hold on
fix my faults
so i can’t last that long

don’t want to

Posted on by under Faith, God

 


i don’t want to close my eyes
to make You more real to me
cause if i believe then i believe
You’re strong enough to make me see

i don’t want to sit in silence
cause i want to know You so much
i’ll believe the whispers of my mind
use the calm as a crutch

but You held Peter above the waves
when the storm would have him drown
so i believe that You can save me
from his shaky ground

the landmines of logic are waiting
for my fragile faith to fall
i know that only a fool
thinks he knows it all

but the mountains aren’t moving
and grandma still died
sometimes it’s too dark to see
You’re still my guide

dying of vows

Posted on by under Girls, God, Sad

 


we’ve watched these ships set sail from shore
happy, frail, and searching for more
sometimes the waves pull them apart
two pulled from the wreckage of one broken heart

God, we’re scared to venture out to sea
what if we miss what’s meant to be
so many ships never make it home
are we better off here alone?

but you hear the whispers my soul speaks
you know i need your strength, i’m weak
God, Your love – never goes away
why is it so hard to make ours stay?

such a fragile thing you’ve given us here
hearts that ache and break and want to near
we toss around love like it’s ok to fail
but you loved enough to take the nails

so many promises turn out as lies
we follow our hearts till we realize
we don’t stop searching for something new
even though we found it all in You

i want the love that only you give
unconcerned with the life i live
a love beyond anything i do
a love that never breaks in two

 

watchmen

Posted on by under Girls, My Favorites, Sad

the watchmen on the wall
trip and fall and crack like glass
and it was my choice
to throw them away or
glue them up for another day

and i let them go, i went unguarded
you hadn’t crossed my border in months
i thought i was through with the enemy
but you weren’t through with me

so maybe it’s my fault
you’re climbing the walls
maybe it’s my fault
my kindom will fall
maybe i brought it all to an end
maybe i’m just glad to see you again

deja vu, i hear the warcry
i smile holds a knife in your teeth
i bar the door and raise the gate
a weak attempt to delay my fate

but you are inside, i have nowhere to hide
drag me out to swear allegience
you’ve taken my castle, you’ve taken my pride
i have to call you queen

twins

Posted on by under Death, My Favorites

can You hear them laughing
we only heard them cry
can they hear us down here
chokin’ back “why?”

and i can’t even tell You how i feel
cause i’m not sure that this is really real
but what’s Yours is Yours to take
what You make is Yours to break

but i can’t lay this in Your hands
God, i just don’t understand
how can this be part of Your plan?

if You’re holding them now
tell them we miss them so
the sweetest souls in heaven
we never got to know

and tell the secret of this lonely place
cause it’s too easy to think it’s all a waste
no answer is comfort to my ears
only time can dry my tears

meant to be

Posted on by under Girls, Love

you always had me i almost thought
we are just what we are not
only time can answer our questions
and i was fine not knowing till now

but we’re nothing but stuck in a traffic jam
you and i have always been right where i am
i don’t believe that i have to wait my turn
i don’t buy that you get just what you earn

cause maybe we’re meant to be
maybe you’re just afraid
i cannot walk away now
knowing you are the answer the prayer i prayed

i have to take a stand for you girl
cause if i let you go you’d take my world
you said we only own our choices
and now i’m choosing you

and if i were to never see the day
you and i got to fly away
it would be enough for me to go
to know that i loved you and i told you so

cause baby we’re meant to be
baby you’re just afraid
i cannot walk away now
knowing you are the answer the prayer i prayed

goddess

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Getting Over It, Girls, God, Sad

i’d follow her to my demise
if she’d only wipe my eyes
her frown could cloud the bluest skies
i lived each day to feel her pass by

i’d never speak her name in vain
i’d always wonder what she’d say
i’d stick with her through wind and rain
i believe i’ll see her (again) someday

but she, she’s not a goddess walking on dirt
she’s just a girl who knows how to flirt
God, forgive me, i fell at her feet
and i got hurt

but she didn’t love me enough to bleed
i had nothing she would need
she spread her wings when she was freed
and i could not follow that lead

she held me down when i was weak
she wouldn’t listen when i’d speak
she’s not the treasure that i seek
but i believed

burning bush

Posted on by under Girls, God, Love

“…I will go over and see this strange sight – why the bush does not burn up”
— Exodus 3:3

i’ve been kicking up sand on my journey
left to my past and my pain
in the heat of the day, i am moving
no direction, no voice, no shade

how many times have i wondered
how did i get myself here
when i chase down springs of water
the illusion dissapears

but hey, what’s the light?
never seen a glow so bright
i feel pulled and i feel pushed
toward that burning bush

we’ve been waiting for some sign
a message to share God’s will
holding up empty cups without
the faith to ask for a refill

everyone around is weak and they
rest on how they feel
we can’t explain the mystery
how God is silent and yet real

(there’s that girl…)

hey, she’s a light
never seen her glow so bright
i feel pulled and i feel pushed
toward that burning bush