to see you again

i did not dream of you last night
i’m afraid that i never will again
as time goes by, i will forget
to mourn for what might have been

i miss the way you made me feel
like it would all turn out alright
now every morning proves you wrong
but i still hope every night

and i miss the tears i used to cry
the pain, it seemed, to hasten the time
i miss the questions from care and concern
with my reply (it’s a lie) i’m not doing just fine

you always wanted honesty
thought i never let you in
but i’d spill out all my secrets if i
could just see you again

i miss the way you used to walk
stub your toe, but never cuss
i miss our all night arguments
you know i just miss “us”

i miss the pawprints on my windshield
that cat you made me buy
chased into the road one day
i never got to say goodbye

i miss that special mug you used
when the day called for caffine
and i miss being accused
of hiding all my feelings

i miss the way you doubted what’s true
i never kept anything from you.

think it’s over now


i think it’s over now
there’s no way it could go on
i’ve been dreaming through the night
but i feel the warmth of dawn

can i pull the covers overy my head?
pretend it’s not the end?
no i’m not allowed
i can’t go back where i began

i’ve got to move on
leave this behind now
God, give me the strength to go
and show me how

if i was honest with her
would i regret what i said
more than the feeling
of keeping it in my head

but now there’s distance between us
i can start to forget
i won’t be blind anymore
but it hasn’t healed yet

if i find myself back here someday
it will be God leading the way
only a miracle will get her to see
she’s the only one for me

the match


baby don’t strike that match
you don’t want to light that flame

baby don’t talk that talk
unless you’re ready to walk away

baby can’t you see
can’t you see the way i feel

baby don’t burn this bridge just yet
don’t do something that you’re gonna regret
i’m not asking for much
lets just keep in touch
don’t burn these bridges

baby you struck that match
off my cheeck like a kiss

baby i’ve been betrayed
by the one i’m still gonna miss

baby don’t drop that match
i’ve stories you haven’t heard
i’ll say anything
won’t you give me the words

make it clear


i left home for college
he left cause he killed a man
we found more than we were ready for
more than we could comprehend

i envy him – how he stood there
staring at proof of God’s plan
how he doubted, and still believed
how he led the slaves from that land

where is that sign
that sends me on my way
signs of the time
don’t seem to speak through flames

but, God, i’m listening – why can’t i hear
when You speak – make it clear

i fear unpopularity
he hid from the wrath in the land
i am shown my potential
he knew he was the weakest man

i want an angel here telling me
i have the strength to succeed
and i want to test You when i can’t believe
You are choosing me to lead

where is my sign
that tells me what to be
signs of the time
don’t seem to dry my fleece

God, i’m listening – and i can’t hear
when You speak – will you make it clear?

love makes fools


it’s a popular notion love won’t be denied
mothers tell daughters to wait for the tide
that washes over the walls of our doubt
and sweeps you away – it’ll happen some day

so girls wipe their eyes – escape under book covers
stories of pure and timeless lovers
in those pages – fantasy and lies
girls grow believing with hope in their eyes

it may never be
or it might be easy
but love will make fools of the wise

the wind-swept wasteland of the real world
wears down even the best of the bold
until we are hardened from some cold war
we needlessly fight in ourselves every night

i don’t believe any fairy tales
love may exist but grows old and stale
nothing can soften my mind made up heart
till i fall at the feet of the next girl i meet

it will never be
like i think it’ll be
falling in love makes fools of the wise

All the Answers

 


why don’t i love my parents like a used to
why don’t i just do what i’m supposed to

why must this world spin on despite my cry for pause
where does God’s grace collide with God’s laws

oh – i don’t have all the answers
but i have all the answers i need

why don’t i don’t have friends like everyone’s supposed to
why can’t i just learn to trust in You

why must my prayers feel like they don’t leave my room
how long can one wait for someday soon

oh – i don’t have all the answers
but i have all the answers i need

what can she teach me that i don’t already know
what could be waiting in San Antonio

All I Can Say


i’ve got so much to say
i don’t want to give it away with a look
but she always has her nose
stuck in that damn book

so i’m quiet till the right time
but everyday just seems wrong
screw the timing, i speak up
to find she’s gone

so i’ll wait till tomorrow i guess
maybe then i’ll know what’s best
i wish it could have been today
i wish – is all i can say

she left me alone and lonely
almost in mid-sentence
i can say it’s no matter of mine
but my shield is showing dents

so i write it all down
and plan to give it to her
but it carries a promise
i know i can’t deliver

well maybe things will be better with me
when i finally learn to set her free

oh brother



my eyes are closed but they don’t make
the world around me disappear
all of the twists – all of the chances
and i had to end up here

no man can hoard all of his feelings
and cover his vulnerable heart
still there’s that shame in falling
so we hide it from the start

but she – she was almost worth the risk
i saw her as no other
and now – she confesses her feelings
she loves me – like her brother?

her words carry off in an echo
like some punishment that i deserve
cause i had hoped to tell her
but i never had the nerve

and i’m stuck here with a smile
though i know that it’s our end
cause one things for sure -if we won’t be more
we will have to be less (than) friends

our conservation has ended
but we think of some reason to stay
over the phone – so close
so far away

i know how he feels


i know a man
knows where he is
knows where he’s going
all he can see is his

we got to talking
bout how lifes a blur
he says, “boy, time flies”
i said, “sir, yes, sir”

funny, i thought him happy
now he seems so real
never thought i’d say
i know how he feels

i know this guy
the coolest of the cool
always plays the hero
never acts the fool

and then he says her name
it all falls out of place
what is that, frustration
cast upon his face?

funny, i thought him happy
now he seems so real
never thought i’d say
i know how he feels

i know this girl
always a laugh and smile
never far from home
though she went the extra mile

we can talk of futures
but things aren’t as they seem
though she looks content
she sleeps with the wildest dreams

funny, i thought her happy
now she seems so real
never thought i’d say it
but i know how she feels

crap dammit

i say crap and i say damnit
i say i lost it as if i had it
i can analyze and say i don’t care
truth is i’m still wanting to go out somehwere

all my complaining hasn’t taught me a thing
just like reading a a hymn doesn’t teach me to sing
but i have a car and a nights worth of fuel
but it sits unused cause life is so cruel

it’s that jealousy rising it’s taking it’s toll
my faith is laid waste by the pain in my soul
it sounds poetic and it sounds so dark
but truth is these times leave unerasable marks

i still want to go outside
and i still want to hide
will i ever learn that God wants the best
and stop chasing after the rest?