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map on a wall

Posted on by under God, Hope


i was walking
(walking through a mall)
looking at the map
up on the wall

then there is was
to calm my fear
a little yellow star
and you are here

then i knew
i wasn’t lost because
i knew right
right where i was

oh – if it was so easy
to find – where i should be
where’s the map to point me
through this reality

i was talking
(talking to the girl)
she was smiling
queen of my world

i dropped her hints
she let them fall
i looked for
the writing on the wall

cause i don’t know
and i don’t wanna guess
can’t you tell me
if she will say yes

just missed her

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls

coincidence took me through my past
now the houses are old and the traffic’s too fast
so i pulled into our goodbye driveway
to see if i could slow time down someway

engine off, i still grip the wheel
like it’s a bumpy ride across all i feel
but i’d gone so far, so far now some how
could not just pull away again now

soft knock on the familiar screen
a glimpse of way back midst the changes i’d seen
but a stranger stood in front of me
sayin’ he wasn’t buying anything

but then i gave him your name he said
‘i’m sorry, you just missed her
can i give her a message
when she gets back from her sisters?’

oh the years came back to me then
standing on the porch of a distant friend
how could i fit all the years
into words that would fill your ears

should i leave my number or not
try to ignite what time forgot
should i tell him our long story
and end it with I’m sorry?

i just gave him my name and said
‘tell her i just missed her’
then i turned and walked away
leaving us in history

in my dreams

Posted on by under Girls, God, Hope


God gave me these eyes I stare at you with
He sent me a faith that I often miss
God gave me these arms, so empty, I reach
He gave me this mouth, i refuse to speak

licking my lips, i look at the sky
will i carry this burden until i die?
my thorn is the flesh, stinging so sweet
i always fall down at your feet

it’s your very existence that makes me struggle
is my hope from God or from me?
it’s the sun on your face, or even the moon
i close my eyes to see you, in my dreams

God granted me breath that i waste on wishes
He sent me a peace that I fight
God gave me this mortal mind that lets
your face keep me up almost every night

You sing a song of love on the way
with wisdom on loan i advise you to pray
maybe God will show you what to do
maybe He’ll tell ya i’m in love with you

it’s your very existence that makes me struggle
is my hope from God or from me?
it’s the sun on your face, or even the moon
i close my eyes to see you, in my dreams

coincidence

Posted on by under Faith, God

 


well Jonah had his whale
and Elijah had Your fire
Joseph had a dream
and David Your desire

Solomon had wisdom
immorality for Enoch
Sara had a laugh
and David had his rocks

looking back i can see Your hand
through this time – across this land
all these random incedents
leave no room for coincidence

You know Israel found Your favor
the shepherd found his lamb
Abram found the courage
then he found the ram

Moses had Your wonders
Saul he had the crown
but You knew he’d only
rise to let You down

 

Ezra had the wall
after he swallowed the wine
babylon had it all
and they still got a sign

isaac had a blind date
with a woman from a well
samson had a secret
delilah had the spell

paul he saw Your glory
shining in the sky
peter used betrayal
till a rooster made him cry

i’ve had my problems
livin’ just like You
but still you forgive
like only You can do.

best has better

Posted on by under Faith, God, Hope


i can hold my tounge with struggle
quiet the storm inside
hide all of my feelings
bury my wounded pride

but with all the control i boast of
still my heart runs free
and i can’t stop it from hollerin’
all my secret dreams

i can’t explain my wishes
i know i’m unworthy
but even the best has better
that God’s planned for me

i can lie if you ask me
cause i know i should not dream
but if God can part the ocean
He can dry some teary streams

i can put on normal
and act like i’m all ok
but then there’s that feeling
when the world looks the other way

i can’t explain my wishes
i know i’m unworthy
but even the best has better
that God’s planned for me

You’re Mine

Posted on by under Girls, Hope, Love

phone in my hand i test the line
the tone means it works just fine
maybe my number is too hard to remember
maybe if i were more kind

i wanna be clear with what i say
i hint at “i’m lonely” and “please stay”
can’t you take the lead, offer what i need
i can’t ask you in an audible way

but if everyone has someone
that’s always true sometimes
if everyone has someone
you’re mine

i see you again and we smile
silence follows to get my riled
i practice a speech i know i’ll never say
and you’ve been listening all the while

i stumble around the subject and i fall
you find me forehead against the wall
you ask what’s wrong, i answer in song
hey what rhymes with why don’t you call

but if everyone has someone
that’s always true sometimes
if everyone has someone
you’re mine

Always Be A Friend

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls, Sad

 


brother i’ve been a friend of yours
long enough to tell the truth
so sit down and let me tell you
your love has no proof

i can see she hold your fancy
you’re giving her your heart
but don’t lose reality
before this goes too far

it’s time you opened your eyes
it’s time you realized
she will always be a friend

in your rush to play it cool
you came across as cold
she’s taking hints you aren’t dropping
hearing stories you never told

she’s pulling away from you
you can’t see it cause you follow
you sacrificed a friend for the feeling
and all you feel is hollow

it’s time you opened your eyes
and finally realized
she will always be a friend

when it’s not easy

Posted on by under Faith, God, Struggles

how long can you endure the silence
and still trust your ears
how long can you waste away your days
till you lose track of the years

and when the good times turn bad
who is to blame?
well i ask for help and faith
to easy the sting of pain

it’s quiet when i listen
should i look for a sign?
i can’t base it all on feelings
on answers i can’t find
i know God knows things I cannot see
so I’ll trust Him even when it’s not easy

i have to believe God sees me cry
i want to believe He cares
when everyone is moving away
it’s hard to think He’s there

i’m jealous of the former slaves
that walked across Red Sea
and I can’t help but wonder
why God doesn’t do that stuff for me

it’s quiet when i listen
should i look for a sign?
i can’t base it all on feelings
on answers i can’t find
i know God knows things I cannot see
so I’ll trust Him even when it’s not easy

all this doubt makes my faith more true
i have promises and history to see me through

what i’m talking about

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Faith, God, Struggles

another night has seen it’s day
another empty plea for company
am i just blind to the blessings out there?
or is something wrong with my prayers?

i follow rules when i study
hope You’ll lead me where to read
and Your words land like a stone
it’s not good for me to be alone

You are the truth i find hard to believe
are my granted wishes so far up Your sleeve?
maybe it’s too much to ask, too much to doubt
but i know You know what i’m talking about

You came to earth on a mission
save the lost at life’s cost
You endured the desert sun
and though You had 12, they chose to run

and Sunday school – it has taught me
God’s love falls from above
but searching this sky for rain
left me thirsty and weak from pain

You are the truth i find hard to believe
are my granted wishes so far up Your sleeve?
maybe it’s too much to ask, too much to doubt
but i know You know what i’m talking about

so obvious

Posted on by under Girls, Hope, Love

do i dare even open my mouth
to tell her she looks nice today
do i dare even open my mouth
i don’t know what to say

do i dare even look at her now
she can see through my lies
do i dare risk eye contact now
she can see the truth in my eyes

it must be – so obvious
it must be – so obvious
i’ve never been good at saying
just how i feel

do i dare share my heart
can i handle a no?
do i dare share a secret
that she surely already knows?

do i dare push her away
maybe it’s God’s plan
do i dare? no i can’t
she was meant for this man

it must be – so obvious
it must be – so obvious
i’ve never been good at saying
just how i feel