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standing still

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, God, Struggles

i’m a leaf caught in the wind
surrendering the all of me
to the breezes of these times
i miss the security of the tree

i don’t want divine rejection
i want to be right at first
but with every choice it’s harder
to imagine things much worse

so maybe i want pity
cause i’m lost without His will
can i be running from God
standing still?

i’m so afraid of hearing no
that i doubt i’ll hear a yes
it’s a mystery why some He shelters
and others aren’t so blessed

but a powerful God should know that
my heart cries out so pure
the deepest sorrow from the sick
is the existence of lost cures

so maybe i want pity
cause i’m lost without God’s will
can i be running from Him
standing still

many will say i’m choosing
a blindness to the signs
many will tell me give to God
what i still must hold to be mine

just don’t lie

Posted on by under friends, Struggles

i can see something surfacing
it’s in the way you sigh
but i’m bothered the silence
cause you’re just being polite

i would rather nurse hurt feelings
than suffer a broken heart
i would sooner you wound my pride
than fear we’ll always be apart

honestly, i want someone to be honest with me
i’ve dealt with fantasy, give me reality
don’t mind the tears in my eyes – just don’t lie

the conversation is over
but no one’s said goodbye
i’m waiting for some reason
as the seconds tick on by

it’s not right to keep it in
tell me what i need to hear
don’t hide it under laughter
don’t don’t worry about my fears

dream guy

Posted on by under Girls, My Favorites, Sad

 


you want a surprise?
look deep in my eyes
i’ve always had feelings for you

every crush you claim
leads me to the flames
it hurts to hear what they do

you want your man
you’ve made your plans
i hope your wishes all come true
but i don’t care about your dream guy
it’s not me, now don’t tell me why
i’d change for you
if you want me to
but i won’t ever be right

will he be there
if you cut your hair
maybe – he might

you put up a front
to get what you want
a prince and love at first sight
but i don’t care about your dream guy
it’s not me, now don’t tell me why

 

ten minutes

Posted on by under Girls, Sad


you’re standing there
staring at your shoes
you ask me if there’s anything more

all i know
is i don’t wanna lose you
all i do – is watch you walk the floor

and the right words seem to wait
until it’s just too late

but now ….please

talk to me ten minutes after goodbye
maybe then i’ll know what to say
talk to me ten minutes after you leave
and i’ll make you stay

i called your name
but you were out of range
or maybe you just didn’t want to hear

all my claims
that i was gonna change
and it’ll be better this year

now you’re gone and i don’t understand
why i’m quiet – why i cannot win your hand

but now….please

talk to me ten minutes after goodbye
maybe then i’ll know what to say
talk to me ten minutes after you leave
and i’ll make you stay

good boy

Posted on by under Conviction / Doubt, Girls, God

i went to church this morning
to chase a trace of some joy
i stayed through sunday school
oh – i was a good boy

i volunteered for the nursery
gonna pick up the toys
i’m coming back wednesday too
cause you know i’m a good boy

but all this doing the walk
oh i’m really only chasing (her)
this good i’ve done
with the wrong motivation

i stayed to help fold the chairs
cause she was there
i carried groceries up the stairs
cause she’d be there

i’m passing out Bibles on the street
cause she is there
and i’m at a meeting – on my knees
to offer up my most selfish prayers

all this doing the walk
oh i’m really only chasing (her)
this good i’ve done
with the wrong motivation

worth the risk

Posted on by under Girls, Love

i’ve love to speak my mind
but the thoughts won’t fit to words
syllables can’t express
the war torn scene in my head

on the one hand there’s a dream
a laugh like a melody
it seems so clear till you see
the other hand is reality

the only thing worse that letting her go
is keeping love secret so she won’t know
i’m so afraid i won’t see her again
it’s worth the risk of losing a friend

i’d love to open my heart
but it’s closed for a time to heal
maybe after all the repairs
you can tour the ruins restored

if only i could blurt it out
she’d fall back in her chair
and for a moment i can forget
that i don’t have a prayer

the only thing worse that letting her go
is keeping love secret so she won’t know
i’m so afraid i won’t see her again
it’s worth the risk of losing a friend

my sacrifice

Posted on by under Faith, God


i can’t gather my gold
melt down and mold it
into an altar from sin
that you’re fire burns in

i can’t cut down the tree
carve a place out for thee
a place to burn and tell
that you’re pleased by the smell

sure, left to my own device
i’d come up with some sacrifice
but what do i need to do
the offering was You
Jesus, You alone could pay that price
so i claim You – my sacrifice

i can’t wear a priest’s robe
wipe blood on my earlobe
all to show that i’m worthy to
just talk to You

i can’t lead the ram to die
for my sake hear it cry
twist the heads off the turtledoves
just to prove my love

i can’t gather my gold
melt down and mold it
into an altar from sin
that Your fire burns in

map on a wall

Posted on by under God, Hope


i was walking
(walking through a mall)
looking at the map
up on the wall

then there is was
to calm my fear
a little yellow star
and you are here

then i knew
i wasn’t lost because
i knew right
right where i was

oh – if it was so easy
to find – where i should be
where’s the map to point me
through this reality

i was talking
(talking to the girl)
she was smiling
queen of my world

i dropped her hints
she let them fall
i looked for
the writing on the wall

cause i don’t know
and i don’t wanna guess
can’t you tell me
if she will say yes

just missed her

Posted on by under Getting Over It, Girls

coincidence took me through my past
now the houses are old and the traffic’s too fast
so i pulled into our goodbye driveway
to see if i could slow time down someway

engine off, i still grip the wheel
like it’s a bumpy ride across all i feel
but i’d gone so far, so far now some how
could not just pull away again now

soft knock on the familiar screen
a glimpse of way back midst the changes i’d seen
but a stranger stood in front of me
sayin’ he wasn’t buying anything

but then i gave him your name he said
‘i’m sorry, you just missed her
can i give her a message
when she gets back from her sisters?’

oh the years came back to me then
standing on the porch of a distant friend
how could i fit all the years
into words that would fill your ears

should i leave my number or not
try to ignite what time forgot
should i tell him our long story
and end it with I’m sorry?

i just gave him my name and said
‘tell her i just missed her’
then i turned and walked away
leaving us in history

in my dreams

Posted on by under Girls, God, Hope


God gave me these eyes I stare at you with
He sent me a faith that I often miss
God gave me these arms, so empty, I reach
He gave me this mouth, i refuse to speak

licking my lips, i look at the sky
will i carry this burden until i die?
my thorn is the flesh, stinging so sweet
i always fall down at your feet

it’s your very existence that makes me struggle
is my hope from God or from me?
it’s the sun on your face, or even the moon
i close my eyes to see you, in my dreams

God granted me breath that i waste on wishes
He sent me a peace that I fight
God gave me this mortal mind that lets
your face keep me up almost every night

You sing a song of love on the way
with wisdom on loan i advise you to pray
maybe God will show you what to do
maybe He’ll tell ya i’m in love with you

it’s your very existence that makes me struggle
is my hope from God or from me?
it’s the sun on your face, or even the moon
i close my eyes to see you, in my dreams