fame

wakin’ up with her name on my breath
blinkin’ her face from my eyes
venturing out means reality
my life comes as no surprise

same old story, oh so true
boy meets destiny girl
but there’s no chance for him
his hope a fallen world

i can wish and i can dream
that things were different than they seem
but it’s not my time, not my chance
i can’t risk this failed romance
i’m dippin’ my toe into the sea
feeling the fear of being caught
but i can hear a distant call
her nets were further than i thought
so envious of her past
of love i had no part
sympathetic to the ones
who let her break their hearts (don’t let her break your heart)
and again with my assumption
she so wild, she can be tamed
millions try and millions fail
to live with fickle fame

forgetting

prayin’ for rain these months gone by
skies cloud over – i wonder why
how could you force these storms on me
when you knew – i was not ready

so i call it a curse though it’s blessing
i suppose i’m trying to keep you guessing
when will i learn that i’m playing with fire
when i get burned by my desires?

you are all powerful, all places
all knowing in all ways
i am – i’m almost forgetting
you can hear me
when i pray

echoes around this cold stone place
have me chasing a dream at a snails pace
but i wash my hands of all my deeds
all cleaned up i offer you my list of needs

i find you there you hide i seek
i hope you can’t see my sincerity’s weak
a God i should praise – a God I should serve
instead i just whine, what do i deserve

on my knees this time for real
afraid to say please – for how you’d feel

letourneau’s lonley hearts hunters club

when I came to college
i said here is my chance
to finally try my hand
at romance

but all the girls went underground
i’m just trying to track them down

in class there are so many
i don’t know what to say
but when i get the guts
the bell rings and they run away

walking down to saga
she looks pretty she looks sweet
then she turns around and
oh-wait that’s Pete

it’s my night for a stakeout
so i camp out on the berm
i don’t see any women
just a couple a million germs

a groups reported sighted
so we’re going out tonight
to wander all around and ok
stalk until daylight

We know all the differences
Between the two genders
Yeah that’s the only test
For our new members

A Boy Named Tim

 

well this here’s a story about a boy named Tim
he lived next door to me but i barely knew him
he said things that made him sound like the coolest boy alive
i remember one time he bought me lunch down at the Hive (food, that is)

Tim spent all night talking on the phone to his girl
he told me about a concert that he claimed would rock my world
he told me pizzas weren’t so very far
so he and i drove there in a stolen car (sorry, Brian)

the next thing i know Tim’s in a bit of trouble
the administration’s trying to burst his self inflated bubble
he tried to shrug it off and say, “i’m so cool”
but everyone around was saying, “Tim, you’re a fool”

Tim is gone now – he’s not here no more
that’s just fine with me ’cause i broke my hand running into his door
now he’s gone and i don’t miss him
and that’s all i have to say about the boy named Tim

because he loves them

 


five o’clock on friday
he’s headed to get his kids
stop lights and trains slow him
and he frowns as he skids

’cause two weeks have ticked by
and he hates being alone
so he smiles as he pulls in front
of what used to be his home

and the kids yell back to mom
do we really have to go
cause it’s no fun, a waste of time
and we love you more, you know

(chorus)
they don’t really mean to hurt him
but they do it the same
but he hides his tears behind his eyes
and he calls them out by name (because he loves them)

9 am on sunday
He’s waiting for his kids
in the auction for their time
He finally has the highest bid

cause all week he was there
but they acted all alone
finally their parking in front
of a building they call his home

they whisper to themselves
do we really have to go
cause it’s no fun, a waste of time
and it’s nothing that we don’t already know

we have divorced ourselves
from the only one who truly cares
all week he’s by our side
and we pretend that he is not there

these times


i came here a simple boy
and i’m leaving about the same
but i’ve grown to love some things
that i thought i’d never tame

i used to sleep reluctantly
for i did not what to know
the things that lie ahead
but now I wait on tomorrow

for these times can change a man
God don’t let my ego out grow your hand
oh these times can change a man
so God don’t let my ego outgrow your hand

when i run to you hold me close
out of harms way
hold me tighter still tell me to stay
when i try to run away

(bridge)
this time has changed me
but God don’t let me live my life in captivity
this time has moved me but
right back there with you is where i long to be

I came here a simple boy
Just following your call
now i’m an individual
who can’t hear your voice at all

rusty

i found out today that my dog died
don’t worry, it was his time to go
i just wish it hadn’t taken to so long
i even had to reload

it must have been Old Yeller
that movie messed with my head
one second i just watching it
and the next my dog was dead

old yeller killed my dog
i thought it was pretend
old yeller killed my dog
now i have no more best friend
old yeller killed my dog
that movie messed with my head
subconsciously

i put it on pause just to get a snack
how was i to know everything was gonna turn south
what a shock when i got back
my dog was foaming at the mouth

i took him out back just like the movie
’cause he must have been rabid
that movie never mentioned
drooling could be just a bad habit

i try

i try to be honest
but sometimes i lie
i try to be fair
but i have judgmental eye

i try to be friendly
but sometimes i’m mean
i try to keep my wickedness
to myself and unseen

and i try to act like i don’t hear when people say…things
i try to act like their words don’t sting

that’s right i’m not feeling alright tonight
that’s right everything is not ok
did you see me when i cried – did you happen to hear me sigh
oh i can’t keep anything from you…
but i try

i try to be good
but i always turn up bad
i try to be happy
but it always makes me mad

i try to ignore
all my faults all my needs
but it’s hard to forget
what everyone else can see

i try to believe these chains they set me free
i try to act like it doesn’t bother me

oh i don’t see you cryin’ here with me
oh i don’t see you dyin’ here with me
why can’t i see you died for me?

just being a friend


you must know i love you
my hidden signals must clear
but your silence is bewildering
that’s your answer I fear

i gave you my heart some time ago
wanting yours in return
but i can’t fathom your rejection
it’s a lesson i can’t afford to learn

when will you see you love me
when will my wandering end
you’ll run to my arms and I can stop
just being a friend

i was doing just fine tonight
till you walked through the door
now i find it hard to concentrate
as you stroll across the floor

well i steal quick glances across the room
you notice and my heart explodes
i say, “Hello” and “How are you”
but what i really want to know

just for today


God the battle’s really hard these days
when one falls there’s no one there to take her place
and another leaves this world still lost
some decide it’s too high a cost

God I’m getting tired of this
have the prayers i’ve sent up missed?
You say I’ll sing to You for all eternity
but from where I sit it’s hard to see — why

i want to praise you forever
but i can’t see that far

so i will – just for today
for this day – this day that you have made
I will praise you – just for today

God show me where to turn
lite my soul and let it burn
i miss the fire that raged in me
the warmth, the light others could see

You say You’re here I know You are
but it feels like You’re some distant star
open my eyes to see You’re light
’cause in this darkness I lose my sight