people move on


i think of the women whom i have loved
i am too quick with that word
i left my heart on the doorstep
like a rumor they’d already heard

who is to blame when things don’t stay the same?
people move on, they get cold
i can’t forget smiling faces
joy once was so bold

i’m praying i’ll forget the way
it seemed so right just yesterday
i had something, but now it’s gone
people move on

i think the one who loved me
no, i guess she never did
she was not shy in saying it though
i still bleed wounds from cupid

i think of the reasons i wanted her
i wonder why she was my wish
when all the world is leaving
she is the only thing that i miss

be still


when everything is noise
clatter crashing on the floor
when i can’t stand the voices
i’ve never needed you more

will you be still
when everything is spinning?
will you be still
when everything is changing?

 

schoolgirl


there you sit grinning like a schoolgirl in her chair
blowing bubbles but you didn’t bring enough to share
and all i want to do is mess up your pretty hair
i wish i could do anything but stare

you make me laugh so much i start to choke
but i think i’m just part of your big joke
i carved a heart in a big shady oak
to replace the one i had that broke

so smirk and tease and drop your jaw
i’ll dance for you until i fall
and then just ask and i will crawl
you’re worth the risk to lose it all

tuck your hair behind your ear
i’ll whisper words you will not hear
and eventually you’ll disappear
but for now i’m glad you’re here

playing with fire


i know, i know i’m playing with fire
it’s a dangerous game to chase desire
and i’m so far away from that pot of gold
i’m already too old

but every night the dreams return
like the flame that always burn
i can’t spend my life just standing by
afraid of trusting an obvious lie

maybe i can make it
i won’t know until i try
this is my chance i’ll take it
and i won’t trust my eyes

maybe i can make it

from here i don’t know which way to go
but if i stop i’ll never know
the closer i get, the clearer the way
i won’t stop in the shade

i must walk this path alone
i cannot get there on my own
i need some hope to hold on to
so i make my way to you

playing fair

i’ve got a deal made with a brick wall
i won’t try to climb it and it won’t let me fall
it’s a sad life lived in yesterdays
and i’m too stupid to walk away

but if i treat you like you treat me
you’d surely leave me lonely
you say i’ve changed
’cause i don’t follow you everwhere
you think it’s strange
all of a sudden i don’t care

but i’m just playin’ fair

see i’ve done the stupid dances
just to keep you out on the floor
and i have the been the man
i don’t want to be anymore
if i did not chase you down
you would not wait around

have you

people are whispering
they say that there’s something here
i know the rumors have reached your ear

and i’d have to agree
if i was not me
love looks like it would be easy

you know i don’t want to…
but no one else should get to…
have you

we’re the best of friends
with a big world to explore
but i can’t tell if i have ever wanted more
there’s no chance for us
it’s so obvious
but still sometimes i’m jealous

naive

i’m only naive
that’s what i thought you’d say
i don’t know the truth
so you explain it all away

but i think you’re too special
never let them say you’re plain
don’t buy love with lying down
pleasure only shadows pain

wrap yourself in promises
a gift for someone true
and wait for love to lead him
hopelessly fallen for you

why does he love

she stands on the corner shouting his name
he used to run his fingers through her hair
she’s made her choice to be a whore
and he tells himself not to care

’cause if he turns to face her calling
it won’t matter how sincere
he knows that eventually
she’ll end up right back here

so why does he lay down his heart to break?
why does he love for lovings sake?
he made a promise and every day he makes it true
maybe one day, maybe she’ll love him too

he adores the memories
the first laugh, the innocent kiss
he knows that sometimes
she forgets that he exists

she still says that she needs him
shows up drunk at his front door
he knows she’s only lonely
like a thousand times before

waiting

every morning i’ve stood at this open door
to watch the sun rise and reveal the empty day
train my eyes at the start of the sky
when i look for you who went away

they say i’m foolish for waiting
and hope’s a hard habit to break
they say i don’t look for you
it’s just my routine of being awake
eventually i go back inside
with excuses i have to believe
though each do i fight harder
to wait instead of grieve

this morning i won’t find you
it feels like pain to close the door
until you wrap your arms around me
you’re worth waiting for

Jesus

Jesus, a name a rarely use
this is that cliche beg for Your hand
i read Your touch brings healing
i don’t really understand

if Your hands, then part of the body
aren’t we all your flesh and bone?
send someone to hold me
i cannot mend if alone

my days hold no assurance
my heart no hope to burn
like fuel to reach my goal
Jesus, i don’t know where to turn

in faith that is not free of doubt
i ask for Your peace, for a friend
i’ll wait here trapped by fear
for the rescue You will send