only one to blame

she wept upon my shoulder
she whispered in my ear
i saw the oceans swelling
in her tears

she hugged me and she warned me
she’d never feel the same
i took the touch over the truth
i am the only one to blame.

let him

let him run his fingers through your hair
let him sing to you a song
when you’re afraid, you’ll try to run away
let him tell you that you’re wrong

let him kiss you full upon the mouth
let him brush against your breast (take away your breath)
show him hints of heaven
let him seek to find the rest

let him squeeze your thigh and smile
let him call himself your man
and all along you sweetly
let him fall into your hand

let him talk to you till morning
let him love till the end
and when you find a newer flavor
let him be then just a friend

let him take you out on friday night
let him make you so happy
but you’ll realize he’s not the one
let him lead you straight to me

if i believed you


if i loved you
i meant REALLY loved you
wouldn’t i want to make you happy?
wouldn’t i feel more than i can explain?
if i loved you
wouldn’t i change?

if i trusted you
i mean REALLY trusted
would i be so afraid of the future?
would i make excuses for what has been said
if i trusted you for daily bread?

if i believed you
then i’d need you
if i saw in you
what i have praised
would i let your name fall
loosely from my tongue?

if i truly meant what i never say
if i chased the light of the ending day
would you see the hunger, desire
if i loved you more than i love the fire

if i loved you i would chase
if i trusted i’d dance
if i believed i would laugh
they say such things are mere chance!

drown in the streams

 


there’s a voice in my head muttering, “God, no”
there’s a voice in my head shouting, “i told you so”
and all of my choices have led me to this
imagine all chances i’ve missed
to make something of what i’ve seen
but i let hope get the best of me
i let hope get the best of me

and the truth is i can’t really see
what is or is not best for me
my deepest feelings
my secret dreams
love is the ocean
but i drown in the streams

all of my choices have led me to this
God, you know everything i’ve missed
when i let hope get the best of me

thirsty


i’m useless
i’m sad and ashamed
i’d rather shed selfish tears
than speak Your name

but nothing around here
reminds me of You
taking a scapel to myths
i wanted to be true

but i won’t sing those songs
unless i mean amazing grace
but more than your voice
i want You to put me in my place

i’m thirsty, Lord
give me a taste (of the reason for pain) i’ll go on again
i’m thirsty, Lord
lift up my chin in this rain

i’ve heard it said before
thinking men get nothing done
when i finally find the will to fight
i find the enemies won

but i survive, and they look down
i’m all wrapped up in my hypocrisy
forgive me for falling so far
and taking Your name down with me

thank You for the drought
You knew a flood would have me think
that i deserve these gifts
when i’m just begging for a drink

time it takes

i tell myself lies in the light of every day
when i swear that this will go away
in four months, in an afternoon
in the time it takes to say ‘I Do.’

can’t tell a story without an ending
i keep readingĀ  signals you aren’t sending
but i know i will get over you
in the time it takes to say ‘I Do.’

such a thing as love

how does the heart of man get so hardened
on a wish that once was faint
now it’s pounding out a rhythm
how does the sinner dance with the saint

yet we find when the music ends
all we’re left with his a handful of friends

i want someone who knows me best
the sun always returns to the west
if there’s such a thing as love
what does it feel like when it’s true?

if there’s such a thing as love
is it how i feel for you?

if it were up to me

i don’t know why
you’re lonely tonight
if it were up to me
you’d be happy

they say that you need to trust
they say it like it’s easy
but i know how hard it is
to believe

they say gettin’ all you want
won’t make you happy in the end
but what if all you want
is to be happy with a friend?

rainmakers

watch the water claim the valley
hear all the rainmaker’s brag
we finally got what we asked for
now we can’t give it back

like a scar on young skin
we will pay for our mistakes
thunder rumbles
as the last time crumbles

nature is more thief than giver
another town joins the river

overtake me

heaven, i’m hiding in the garden
ashamed of what i’ve given away
i’m only a slave to strong emotion
crouching in the darkness of day

drag me out to face You
for sins i can’t deny
but You call me, You invite me
You let me choose to lie

overtake me and break me
put me together again
overtake me and break me
put me together again

heaven, i’d running far from you
chasing the desires of my heart
i’m afraid that all the plans i made
won’t save me when we’re apart

i’ve come to think that it’s my way
to chase the passion calling me
but it’s you who’s whispering my name
relentlessly