no


you ask me if we can be friends
i did not think that i’d hear from you again
cause lately all we do is argue
i’ve tried to so hard to hate you

but your voice is a potion in my ear
with the words i never dreamed i’d hear
you miss me, you want me around
you know i’ll never let you down

but no
i love you too much
to just keep in touch
we’ll never be
what we were before
my heart will always want more
no.

i’m so afraid that i’ll push you away
more afraid you’ll quietly say
it’s ok, i understand, i’ll leave you alone
i’m afraid, wish you’d say…

no
you mean too much
to simply lose touch
maybe we’ll never be
what we were before
maybe God plans so much more
no.

i love you, but


it’s not the dress you wanted when you dreamed
it’s not new and it has torn seams
but you where it like cinderella’s gown
i swear your feet don’t even touch the ground

look at that face, i can’t look away
your blue eyes are anchored in comfort grey
the questions are gone from your smile
the answer’s at the end of the aisle

i know how long you’ve waited for today
women wish for the games that girls play
i know you too well to doubt what i see
he makes you happy

he’s not the prince charming your mom foretold
but love at first sight is the first to go cold
i close my eyes, though it’s ok to stare
did you choose him just because he was there?

i didn’t chase my dream, chase you away
i let you go thinking you’d come back to stay
every risk needs someone to lose
and baby, hope was so easy to choose

so i’m here to see with my own eyes
i hope something inside me dies
something that avoids despair
i still love you, but he was there

i love you but,

he makes you happy.

cement

 

sure, he’s simple
a one dimensional man
and all his letters
you understand

you want a guy
solid like stone
like he’s better off here
alone

but i want to be temporary
until you make your mark on me
a fingerprint in wet cement
make me permanent

i don’t have a dream
to follow at all cost
i just dream of you
without you i am lost

none of my stories make sense
you are the missing ending
you want a real man
and i’m just pretending

blue tie


a guy in a blue tie told me you had died
i didn’t believe him but i sat right down and cried
he said he was sorry, he said that he would stay
he put a hand on my shoulder and i cussed it away

i was angry at him, but i don’t know why
he told me the truth when most men would have lied
i’m sorry now for the things i said
to the man who told me you were dead

there are so many questions, i say i’m fine
besides you lies this heart of mine
but i can’t feel, and i asked God
to give me the sorrow to keep you
as close tomorrow

your mom isn’t crying , isn’t that strange
your dad is different, yeah, everything’s changed
the preacher says you’re in a better place
they painted a smile on your face

there are so many questions
i saw i’m fine
beside you lies this
heart of mine

story of a liar

God the father reader of dreams
you alone know what i really need
did you plant in my heart a passion seed
all i want is her

and that probably is my proof
it’s a wish, selfishly
everybody loves this way
they get crushed, then they get ok

but i think somehow i’m special
like my heart can read your mind
i’m afraid if i give it to you
it will get left behind

of course the answer is easy
if it was never meant to be
then one day i’ll be able to see
what you have better planned for me

but that answer doesn’t satisfy
she is all that i desire
got please let this be real
not the story of a liar

say it again



speak to me the words that make me smile
the day is long and i am not prepared
to face the trouble; home’s so many miles
gimme some help to get there

finger in flour, your love on my heart
you touch me and leave an obvious mark
but sunset red, the last words you said
light me in the dark

say it again
say it again

birds are chirping, the sky is so blue
i used to say this was so cliche
but old emotion is always new
as we discover each new day

still i worry still i fear
tell me it will be alright
when you whisper it in my ear
a blind man gets his sight

All The Boys Stare

yes, you are pretty
all the boys stare
yes, you are bright
you are lighter than air

like a balloon
windswept you flew
but like a balloon
we see right through you

keep your sweet smile
pocket your charms
no man is reaching
with marry-me arms

without you

i can’t be your friend without wishing for your heart
i can’t hear you laugh without wanting to make you smile
i can’t speak your name without wanting to give you mine
i can’t bring you down without wishing i was driving you wild

i can’t hear your dreams without wanting to sing you to sleep
i can’t see your eyes without wanting to share the view
i can’t know you care without hoping for a chance
i can’t fall in love… without you

maybe that’s why it’s so hard to see you again
asking me if we could be friends
some wounds never mend

i can’t fall in love… without you

unguarded

i stake my story on rumor of chance
if i am wrong i will fall and all break
for i know i’m ill equipped for romance
some guys don’t have what it takes

if every know that’s screamed in my ear
proves out to be the obvious plan
i’ll cradle the dream that i never did hear
i chose a lie and you chose another man

but david’s stone took goliath down
a bloody jawbone saved samson’s life
a baby boy wore heaven’s crown
so i hope you’ll be my wife

God is the God of what’s best for me
has He given me sight to see that it’s you?
or do i desire fruit from a tree
a dream best left untrue?

i write this like a man unguarded
drawn to danger, left to die
they say i’ll end up broken hearted
but for the sake of love i try

paper airplanes

i wrote a song, it starts off ‘i love you’
but i don’t know who to send it to
i’ve always traded my heart away
to anyone who promised to stay

but they never do, they leave me alone
with a blaring tv and a silent phone
i make excuses like paper airplanes
they don’t really work, they just drift away

does everyone face these these fears?
walk around hiding their tears?
is life really what we make it?
can i fake it?

they want to see smiles, and i should pretend
after all, the truth is a hurtful friend
if you make me laugh, you make me glad
but i can’t fix you when your sad

is there some place for those who still care
who feel the pain of others despair
for those who wait for love’s sweet glow
to find them, hold them let them know…