losing you


i can hear in your voice a final goodbye
funny, i always thought i’d see it in your eyes
over the phone, in between states
i hear you hesitate

like a baby left outside your door
my heart is too fragile to ignore
i hear you sigh, and i know why
not every free bird flies

maybe we aren’t meant to be
but loving you is all i can do
and it’s worth the risk
it’s worth the risk
of losing you

you do not want to see me broken
so you leave harsh words unspoken
there is no phrase that would push me away
only the word you’re too nice to say

you tell me only time will take care
of the feeling i have finally shared
but you ask for something i cannot do
you want me over you

carry you

they say you’re on the way
they say you’re near
it’s your first day
of your first year

we’ve been waiting
to watch you grow
to see you testing out your fingers
and curl those tiny toes

we’ll feed you and clothe you
and send you to school
we’ll fix your scraped knees
and your bicycle too
until you can wallk
we’ll carry you

so start a new story
this is chapter one
just imagine the work
that God’s begun

how far will you travel
where will you stay?
follow God where He leads you
you’ll be ok

he’ll guide you, beside you
he’ll be your rescue
he’ll fix broken hearts
if you only ask him to
and when it’s just to hard to walk
he’ll carry you

corner booth

 


so it comes to this between you and me
a corner booth and warm cup of coffee
i look at myself from your empty eyes
a tree that secretly wants to fly
i whisper goodbye to the fleeing birds
you quote these rumors i haven’t heard
turn to the window, i can’t see the stars
just lights flickering over parked cars
your voice is a ringing telephone
right now i wish to be left alone
all i remember is the night you and i
sat on the grass staring up at the sky
the moon peeked through a cloudy wall
the night you and i, we felt so small
we were two needles lost in a haystack
i gave you my heart, now you hand it back
you drop your spoon, it hits the cup
maybe you’re trying to make me look up
but my eyes are turned mournfully low
as i wait for you to go
you offer no reason, not even a lie
you cast no blame that i can deny
searching for words, you look at the ceiling
i wonder if love is only a feeling
what i’ve found will not easily die
you seem content with a tearful goodbye
if i see you again, do i walk the other way?
stand in the corner thinking of something to say?
i’m letting you choose where forever ends
why not let you tell me when we can be friends
now i nod and smile, and say i understand
just so you’ll let go of my hand
i won’t i speak of love anymore because
i’m not sure if it ever was
but watching you walk out to your car
i whisper “farewell” to my falling star

worn off


well i can’t be honest with myself
i won’t admit what i know deep down
truth is locked and guarded behind
the hope that she’ll come around

st. valentine was tough on me
Christmas was the last time we touched
she shook my hand and she broke my heart
and i know now i cared too much

cause this should have worn off by now
i’m not supposed to always think of her
this should have worn off by now
i’m not supposed to always love her

the mirror mocks me cause it sees the truth
i missed my chance to lay it down
she was one of my reasons for being
the only reason i stayed in that town

new year’s gave me the courage to flee
nobody asked me not to go
i knew i would miss her
but i should have told her so

cause this should have worn off by now
i’m not supposed to always think of her
this should have worn off by now
i’m not supposed to always love her

women hurt men

cliches are annoying, only when they’re true
sometimes we don’t want to be told what to do
just leave me alone till i come find you
i know you care, i know you’re there for me

history teaches lessons that every man must learn
standing over ashes of bridges we once burned
i know love will find me if i just wait my turn
there’s fish in the sea, but none for me

there is a reason women are feared
it is no myth or legend
there is a reason women are feared
women hurt men….just friends

everybody brags about the traffic in their town
we look to have it worse so we can be proud to stick around
look, i made it through so nothing can take me down
there’s always mistakes in the chances we take

at best i have a history to tell on late nights
of making up only to prepare for the next fight
even when she’s wrong, she still feels so right
she broke my heart, she ripped me apart

there is a reason women are feared
it is no myth or legend
there is a reason women are feared
women hurt men….just friends

when love was easy

the streets shine back the moonlight
rain has ruled the day
night chases sun behind the clouds
sky goes black from grey

singles meet and mingle
they’re running out of time
they need to have somebody
by valentines

i remember the smiling face
broughr bright red hearts to me
i remember saying her name
when love was easy

but those were warmer days
when rain was only prayed for
her name is now unspoken
her smile seen no more

people speak of heroes
like they say “meant to be”
i used to quote destiny
when love was easy

to his shoulder

i made you cry
we said goodbye
i feel sick inside
cause i break you down
he fixes your frown
i need some place to hide

i send you to his shoulder
because i love you so
i tell you when you’re wrong
i think that you should know
but i’m sorry…don’t go.

he wipes your tears
he calms your fears
you trust beyond your doubt
that he is your man
but you understand
everything i’m talking about

the party


the evening raced to midnight
now you sense each second pass
an awkward cough, an “i should go”
i goodbye on the grass

talelights fade behind the bend
you know this day is done
the lights are off, the door is locked
you don’t pick up the fun

it’s cluttered on the floor
like some old memory
you’ll clean up in the morning
for tonight just leave it be

lay your head down, drift to dream
stay anchored on the night
the words, the tone, the meaning
she will, she won’t …she might

did you make a fool of love
could see what you pretend
is this feeling finally real
or just another friend?

song for the ignored

i squeeze every ounce of joy
out of my day to hand to you
you swallow it and smile
a runner with one less mile

but deeper words lie like seeds
you don’t have time to sort through
i have to keep it shallow
if i’m going to keep you

tell me that i matter
tell me that you care
tell me that you miss me
whenever i’m not there

but i hide my hurt from healers
secret wounds from friendly fire
if they knew they’d say walk away
but you are my heart’s desire

i walk into traps, i know the danger
you love who i am, but not me
i can’t ever ask you to…
so i smuggle my dreams inside memories

reach

if i climbed to the highest
would you know my name
if i hid in the lowest
would you still see my shame?

if i cry cause i’m lonely
would you send a friend
if i tell her goodbye
will i see her again?

why waste my wonder
on the skies i live under
cause You’re tryin’ to teach
let go of what is out of Your reach

if i walked in the fire
could you cool the flames
if i fell to the lions
would you make them tame?

if i follow my heart
will it be my guide
if i fell from the path
will you know that i tried

 

if i walked away
would you not give chase
if i was lost in the would
could i find your grace

if i could step from this land
and shake off the dust
if i could wake in a dream
i would still need You, Jesus