my stuff
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arizona rain
10-10-2000 —– inspiration like arizona rain falls on the sand it abandoned flows life through the land like veins i’ve never been to arizona maybe a clue to what i’m missing a lifevest thrown from a passing plane ‘we won’t be able to save you, son but we’ll send someone you’re way’ oceans are deserts…
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the breath you exhaled into me
10-6-2000 —- it’s like finding something and only when your eyes catch sight of it then you realize that you were needing it all along and that’s what was missing – that’s what was wrong like kicking off the sheets and finding cool night air forgetting four senses getting lost in a stare twirling so…
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remember my name
2-18 —- where are my thoughts that i can explain this feeling inside neither pleasure nor pain so many miles still i haven’t moved on i remember so much that i never feel gone but i am forgotten, i must keep in mind the lives i left have left me behind there is no great…
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unerasable marks
11/15/99 i say crap and i say damnit i say i lost it as if i had it i can analyze and say i don’t care truth is i’m still wanting to go out somehwere all my complaining hasn’t taught me a thing just like reading a a hymn doesn’t teach me to sing but…
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a reason for it all
7-29-99 give me some worry give me some pain give me something so i can complain every truth i ignore every knock on locked doors every time i take a fall there’s a reason for it all give me some sleep give me some peace give me a freedom a taste of release every sin…
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5-18-99
i’m supposed to say something smart but i’m fresh out of wise everyone’s waiting to laugh they stare with pitiful eyes i can tell a story one they’ve already heard boy meets girl, and then comes that L word what audience will sit through this even though the seats are free i have to admit,…
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fair to her
is it fair to her if i’m just killing time until you’re mine? is it fair to her if i’m just holding on until you’re gone? but i won’t break her just to fix myself what if she is the one? i know you’re not, but you could be
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weak reflection
is this some weak relfection of how God feels longing for a love that doesn’t leap into my arms i try to be the one she wants but it’s up to her to see i’m here to hold her and keep her safe from harm she likes some parts of me but she wants to…